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No time, no time.

2009-03-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

K i have so much to say,
alot of angers to vent!!
people are wondering why suddenly me & jianying back together again.
if you want to know you can read my blog,
it is because, we've rekindled our friendship.
thats all, as simple as that.
so dont ask so much or be so surprised about it
because it doesnt concern any of you, cept us. -.-

okay, and i have to clarify some stuffs.

(1) i patch back with her is not because i have quarrelled with fion and kristin
(2) its not because i am lonely or have no friends thats why i find her.
(3) if you dont like me, i dont see why you have to bother to talk to me.
(4) if you dont even know me well, forget about spreading untrue rumours about me _|_
(5) if you dont like me, no point STARING AT ME. fuck.
(6) i find it so amusing that some people took hatred so seriously..
(7) if you're a two-faced person you better fuck off to a faraway land.
(8) sorry, but i think... you suck :)
(9) its starting soon, tomorrow :)
(10) im beginning to appreciate a loner's life.

LOL
anyway today was okay..
heng wasnt late..
then had english mock exam..
then had phototaking...
then had BIO for half an hour
then was recess.
-
then was chemistry..
then was english...
then was maths.
maths was freezing..

then had lunch with jianying wendy eilane sihui & sinya
afterwhich, went for Bio asp..
then went for Chem asp...
after that, meet Jianying and wento Compass.
post out package and walked around
bought some stuffs to eat and i borrowed two books from the library!!
HAPPY ^^ cos it's from LBD :D
then home sweet home
using computer till now
feel quite disappointed in myself

cos i havent revise SS and haven't do english yet.
hai..
so anyway i realised i have STALKERS in my blog!!
fancy stalking my blog at 12MIDNIGHT
WTF.
and i spotted someone doing some very despicable stuffs!
damn it, i despise her SO MUCH CAN?!!!!
people's actions really tells alot man.
anyway.

Im moving,
changing my bloglink..
only revealing it to people im CLOSE TO.
sorry, i have two-faced people radar & backstabber radar.
HAHAH so if you're a potential one,
SORRY you so cant find it out (broken english)
HEEEEHEEEE

so then.
byeee!

Happy.

2009-03-02T22:12:00.002+08:00

okay, so i've wasted a day on computer.
darn, i wanted to blog and my sis alrd came out of shower
so i gotta go alrd
dont feel like going asp tmr
feel like going out and study.
well..

i speak the truth and not the fake
im not afraid of what i say
because i am always ready to face the fact
i break down when i need to
i cry when i need to
i am happy when i need to
i praise when i need to
i do things that will make people happy/sad
but i dont do things on purpose.

i am not 2faced
because i dont think there is a need to
2faced people are hypocrites who just backstab without thinking of others
haha
snatching friends or whatever is a stupid thing to do
it amuses me so much that im falling off my chair...

well.. i tried my best to salvage the friendship
what is going to to happen next depends on them :)
so now it does not really matter that whether im a loner or what
because loner or not does not matter
as long as i dont feel guilty in whatever i do.

serves you right to get a flu :)
because you know, karma. ^^
mood change.
haha. i know.

ANYWAY
super happy cos just got a message from esther
that we're changing back to OVERTURE 2
WOOOO~
actually playing overture 1, i know NUTS about it
but now overture 2!!!
woooo

k, so then!
and i've patched up with my girl :)
none other than JIANYING.
it doesnt matter whoever doesnt approves of our friendship
because i think it is NONE of your business.
friends have freedom to make friends
just like you have your freedom to have other friends.
:) happy, everythings coming back.

k, bye!

Great day :)

2009-03-01T15:18:00.002+08:00

FUCK! I POSTED AND ITS GONE!
DAMNNNN IT!!!
am lazy to blog again
but well,

CVMB DID A GREAT JOB YESTERDAY!
we're so gonna strike gold for SYF =D

Cool. It's screwed.

2009-02-27T19:55:00.005+08:00

blogger was being a bitch to me
i was using mozilla
and the stupid blogger.com just wont load
uploaded my thoughts into another portal
here it is,

i wrote this during chinese asp

"i was feeling so much, so i wrote it
as i sat there alone, in that secular
spot.
i feel so odd, so odd one out.
The bond of friendship doesn't seem
existent anymore.
Nobody cared, nobody asked anymore.
To a certain
extent, i felt like a loner. Someone so alone,
Someone so pathetic. While
I'm finding a way out, there's no helping hands extended,
several mouths
asking. Apparently, it is, maybe a natural/unnatural action to do.
To show
care and concern to someone whom you are not really close with.
Out of a
sudden, i just feel only sympathy for myself. I feel like a stranger,
in
another world. Nobody know me. Nobody knows what i am thinking.
Nobody
bothered. i feel so so so pathetic for myself.
The bond's gone and we seemed
like strangers. You are so much better
and happier without me. Maybe i
shouldnt have existed
My existence seemed to cause only agony.
Agony to
myself and others. I feel stranger-like. ):

xo"

i dont care how or what views you're gonna have
its my thoughts. i care can alrd :)

another one.

i feel stupid
this feeling sucks.
i have no one to talk to now
i have no one to trust now
i have no one to gossip to now
i have no one to go shopping with now
i have no one to study with me now
i have no one to help me now
i have no one to listen to me now
i have no one to acc me to talk about boys now
i have no one to msn with me
i have no one to camwhore with me now
i am SO ALONE.
fuck it.

well. both's true
i feel pity for myself
i aint doing anything to solve the problem
because i knew they were happier this way.
so should i do things to their benefit or to my own benefit?
hai. my stomach's grumbling.
i feel so tempted to eat the roller coaster beside me
and im so gonna eat it
no appetite for rice-y stuffs, which is my dinner.
i wonder what's my dinner.

having a performance @ SCH tomorrow
i dont feel anything
no excitement/nervousness or whatever
NOTHING i felt NOTHINGG
holyshit.
and, gotta wake up at 645 in the morning
nice one. and its ending at latest 11pluspm
which is like, SO LONG

can i complain? i feel like complaining
why must we be the earliest.
gosh. shall bring some homework there.
no, better not.
cos later i galang-gabo then mess up everything

anyway, the book rachel sim gave me for my birthday was great
i cant imagine i actually finished it in 2days
miracle. lolllllll
cos its a killer thriller.
hoho
its nice :) :) :)
and im kinda hooked on to LBD's books!
i wanna buy some soon.
so anyway i didnt attend school today
because i fucking overslept!!!
damn. its like the WORST habit i have in my life
i keep oversleeping(?)

and its on a wrong day because its FRIDAY
wasted!!! friday end class at 12.30
which is like so not worth it if im planning to skip school
ahhhh ):
k nvm then i went for the chi asp which starts at 1
i was early. and i saw something
but its okay. im trying to get used to it. :(
anw, mr lee saw me. haha
and he's so surprised to see me
idk why but he seemed to have caught the point that
i came because i wanted to attend band.
HAHAHA miracle plz.

k nvm then he asked and i said i overslept
hahahaha i think its okay for him cos everyone makes mistakes
right? :)
then attended the chi asp,
not surprisingly, i sat alone. :)
pathetic aye? i felt that for myself too
embarassed when people walked past.
cos i looked straight into his eyes, i was searching for him.
i was.... you dont have to know :)
hahahahaa

k, then after that headed for band
warmed up and stuffs
was kinda irritated or rather pissed off that
someone stole my stand
it was a chain reaction ya know.
someone ( k i know who) took my stand
then i took alexia's stand
which in turn gave me a black face -.-
sorry i dont deserve that
but well, idk why there werent enough stands for flautists.
hmm

then was kinda tensed today
cos mr er was like, serious.
haha, he found the MD he wanted and he recorded us
i think we did shit in the two recordings
maybe he should rehearse first? lol.
screwed up at one part and he literally told us off
damn. suddenly, i really felt the fear. hahahah
was welling up tears tho but i didnt cry k.

and was happy when mr er praised us :)
like once in a blue moon can? (:
so dont blame me if im striding it here.
heeeeehaw
k then after that had early dismissal
collected some moneh for tmr
and mr soo jian hao ran off w/o paying
and gabriel brought 5 ringgit. haha!
so in the end i paid for them

was kinda upset.
but its okay after ive sorted things out with him
initially was walking home w/ kiathao
when kenneth sent him a message
and he scooted back. hahaha
cos the msg contained a word "fuck you!"
i didnt know kenneth could be so fierce :O

k home sweet home :)
and i finished up my book
last 3 pages.
hahahaha
i was running late in the morning.
then played with my hamsters
my brother's hamster squeaked so badly and so much
that i was pretty pissed off
seriously!!!
she was after my finger.
and when she attacked me i would get fierce and gave her the hard look
and she'd backed away.
cool. aint it?

haha
then started surfing net
till now, it's 10pm and i havent bathed
havent washed my band Uniform
and i havent done ANY homework
woowwwww
cool, i need a motivator
i kept procastinating!!

anw, im shifting soon
moving house
to somewhere nobody knows
no one will bother anyway
right?
toodles.

Finally!

2009-02-26T00:22:00.001+08:00

Finally finished my F&N research& development!!!
BUT, i havent done maths & english summary yet
omg. i dont think im doing it
im so tired ):

i think im gonna wake up at 5am later
and finish it. but i doubt i could wake up
Lol. but im going to sleep now, really.
if i cant finish, also no choice!
cos now alrd 12.30
if i dont go sleep, i'll only be more tired.

well, i'd rather sleep.
i didnt have my afternoon nap!!!
)))):
k, i seriously need more friends
Random.
friends, talking friends
crappy friends.
haha im getting alot of that recently
friends is a very general term
it depends on how you look at it.
darn. my english improved after doing my F&N
cos i've been reading stuffs from the internet
and its British English (Y)

hope tmr and friday wont be a terrible day
hope i wont have cramps tmr. *pray*

2009-02-25T18:44:00.002+08:00

ahhhh
i initially skipped ASP because i wanted to do my F&N
instead i wasted time at something else!!
damn. so much things to do, so little time!!!

F&N research - BY TOMORROW
Maths worksheet & tb questions - BY TOMORROW
Chinese Compo - BY TOMORROW
and i owed Mr Patrick Chong like, uncountable SS notes!
AHHHHHHH
i shall start my F&N research now!!!!!
i mean, finish it!

"I'm constantly thinking of a way to solve the issues.
But i cant think of any.
I'm always stucked when it comes to friendship problems
People say, forgive & forget.
Does it apply to you as well?
I doubt so. lol."

Cool stuffs.

2009-02-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

press the links kayz

cute earbuds
buttered toast
sleep mask
lomos (for fion) (fisheye included)
giant earbud speakers
nice accessories
doodle planner (aw! i wanted to buy this! but the cap limit reached alrd!!)

ahhh
im so tired. T.T

Flipping through the old photos,

2009-02-23T16:33:00.002+08:00

Hello.
i was reading through my archives for something
and i found this!

1) be happy
2) stay optimistic
3) CVMB get GOLD for SYF 09
4) new pencil case
~~5) branded water bottle~~
6) contacts w/ astigmatism
7) a touchscreen phone. (i fell in love with enqi's phone. haha, its pink)
~~8) more makeups ( i need a concealer and liquid eyeliner urgently!!!!)~~
9) slim down (i don't want double chin* haha)
10) have a better figure
11) more bags
12) more genuine friends
13) lesser hi-bye friends
14) lesser hypocrites in my life
15) sleep at 11pm everyday
~~16) have a birthday cake~~
~~17) have a happy birthday~~
18) have freedom
19) have a boyfriend who loves me
20) have a big massive hug from people who loves me.
a branded pencilcase
~~a pair of pumps/flats(must be black)~~

k so, im gonna strike out those which are fulfilled.
haha!
only a few was fulfilled.

from my profile's wishlist,

rebonding/goodresults/~~blackflats~~/returnall$/~~vivitars~~/newphone/dresses
bags/~~makeups~~/~~goodfriends~~/~~ahappybirthday~~

yay, this has more. :)
haha
basically, today was really good
i woke up at 6am but went back sleep
then my bro told me that the baby hamster was stucked in the railings(-.-)
then yeah, used a plier and took it out :)
i mean, i opened up the railing thingy la. LOL
k, today wasnt really good
had science ST i think i will fail
reached home at 4.10 like that
so early :)
suddenly got motivated to do maths!
haha
i love maths ASP ^^

well, idk what im supposed to say
but i was devastated when i read your post
i dont know what to react.
but i certainly dont agree some points that you mentioned
and, the mirrors part was hurting.
so you meant that i was ugly? thats why the mirror would break?
k, other than that i dont know what to say already
im speechless.

2009-02-22T21:27:00.002+08:00

put me down, kick me, slap me
this is the best time to humiliate me
because i have no energy to retaliate
no energy to care about what are you doing
im totally broken
into half
mentally, physically.

im just a walking body
soul-less,
mindless,

i dont care
anymore about what is happening
maybe the best i could do is to do well in my Os
and move on
friends.
meant the most.
but which friend could be there for you?
all the way?
listen to you?
have true heart to heart talks?

tell me.
im feeling so screwed

2009-02-22T21:26:00.001+08:00

i need sympathy
i need people to care for me
im always caring for others
but nobody's considerate enough to care about me
im always left behind, somewhere, someday
im alone.

I dont need suitors, I need friends.

2009-02-22T21:23:00.001+08:00

k im very very very super extremely upset now
today just sucked to the max
okay, maybe not the whole day
the first part was fine, till we went to fareast
somethings wrong somewhere
nobody asked nobody said anything
i was then left alone
i went home alone
so it just sucked.
max.
lend me your ears if you could
i seriously need to scream, shout, kick someone's ass, cry out loud
for goddamn fcuking sake
im super. super. upset
i need a shoulder.

the feeling's the same
when i broke up with him
i feel so alone
i feel so neglected
that you didnt ask me why
ask me what happened
ask me why am i doing this
why am i like that

its always happening
nobody ever asked, why.

PICCAS HEAVY

2009-02-22T02:52:00.012+08:00

shall continue tmr!
going sleep alrd
ciaos!

Happy birthday to me! (belated post!)

2009-02-22T01:57:00.003+08:00

alrighty. i shall post now!
i know i owed alot of posts.
haha, i think it's gonna be long
enjoy reading!

Sunday, 15feb2009

k. lemme recall..
met the clique at the arcade near bunk.
jinsheng reached first, followed by me
then eve, kristin.
then ken, daiwei, lennard, yewwei and kinweng.
spent some time in the arcade.
then wento plazasing and i did some shopping.
hahaha. bought pumps and flipflops at cotton on.
then we trained to bugis. bought some gifts.
wanted to eat at Seoul Garden
but it was rather pricey. so we changed place.
ate at Hipno USA(???) actually i also dunno the restaurant's name
HAHHA but it was the american restaurant beside PastaMania at Bugis Junction.
settled down and ordered our foods :)

quite a coincidence cos quite some of us ate the same stuffs.
hahaha. the staffs were kind enough to help us arrange the seatings
cos there were 9 of us. hahaha
ate and stuffs, was quite full by then :)
afterward, the boys wento the toilet then they came back with something.
hahahha
was talking halfway and suddenly the staffs came out with my cake :)
and it was literally the whole restaurant became very lively.
the staffs and clique sang birthday song and they gave me a complimentary dessert!
was damn touched by them. then made wishes and cut the cake! :)
ate and leftovers we gave it to the staffs! =D
oh! and they gave me my present too
it was a super huge water bottle. in red. lol
after that we took some photos and left.

wento arcade again
actually wanted to play L4D but alot people
in the end didnt. then we slacked ard,
me and kristin wento play House of the dead.
hahahahah
all-time favourite.
then trained home with kristin and ken afterward.
home sweet home around 11pluspm
had a great and wonderfulllllllllllllllllllllllllll day.
thanks clique! LOVE YOU GUYS. =D

Monday, 16 feb 2oo9
woke up around 7plusam
and i felt sick. so i didnt went school
hahah.
then wento Compass with sissy.
then she gave me my advanced prezzie: JELLY LENS!
hahahahaha
then after that i met Haru
the queue at the polyclinic's was DAMN FREAKINGLONG
seriously, and this time i rmb to bring my birthcert!
if not i think they wont even let me register.
hahaha then waited for my turn
the doctor was good! very nice person! =DDDD
Haru said if its a girl then it would be very different
haha! i agreeeeee.

then collected my medicine
and headed to Compass' kpt
lunched there and home sweet home afterwards :)

Tuesday 17 feb 2oo9
k so i had a very miserable day on tuesday
because my beloved VP refused to let me go home
was seriously having MIGRAINE and she stupidly thought that i was FAKING IT
WTFUCK. was like cursing and swearing
in the end i dint attend my science ASP and i went home
slept and blah.
super pissed off by her.
how inhuman of her.
sounds wrong but whatever
JUST A DOG.
idiotic biatch~

Wednesday, 18 Feb 2oo9
Happy Birthday to Me!
I'm sixteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen~
Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes!
Advanced,
Evelyn, KiatHao.
18th,
Wanjing, Kristin, Natalie, Nicholas, Haru, FION, Jingyang, Denzel,
Daniel, Esther, Kenneth, Dennis, Shimin, Reuben, Simin.
all these were SMS-es.
quite a number of people wished me during school too
some were unexpected =O

K, very hard to post the day's events hahaha
so! the first gift i received was..
suranthi's present, which was a small bear and a card :)
then,
fion's present, an eyeliner and a card :)
then kristin's, a concealer and a card :)
went back to own class after SS,
then was sean, jooxiang, jiancheng & qirui shared gifts.
a box of ferrero rocher and a bar of cadbury choco!
and weijie's purple birthday bear! hahaha (its purple and 16!)
then was elaine & sihui's a bar of cadbury choco!
about the same. so qiao!
haha!
then i think its agnes & alex's shared gift, a lipgloss.
not forgetting kiathao's card and $10! HAH thats the best.
:) then i forget whose alrd (oops)
was heading for english class
and my beloved girls left a bouquet of roses on my table!

was shocked and surprised and happy
haha! and thanks alex for helping them!
cos i knew something was wrong when he dragged me away just to look at my present!
hahahaha
OH! and kristin's board!
filled with our pictures. realised that recently she liked to do this of handmade stuffs
haha!
then went for english ~
then recess,

after recess was POA?
hahah then was F&N
i forget what happened after this alrd!!!
HAHAHAHA
k i seriously forget~

Thursday, 19th feb 2oo9
hmmm
first period was CT's
then was bio then was ???
then was english? seriously mr suaini likes wasting time!!!
LOL then was SS? then was maths and F&N
didnt went for band cos i was rushing my research
gotta thank Miss tan for allowing me go man!
if not i sure die. hahaha
in the end finished up at home
oh! and thanks Dion and Melvin for the toblerone!
hahaaha

Friday, 20th feb 2oo9
had PE as first period
did pushups and sit ups
darn, doing situps on the floor really hurt my spine ):
then played captains' ball.
was a good game! i love it. hahahaha
then was english, then chinese.
after recess was POA.
i think im starting to lose concentration on POA (shit!)
kkk then was CHI ASP
the teacher has got two thumbs which made it 11 fingers altogether
i wondered why some people will have extra finger?
hmm then after that went for band
very tired. during fall in, did 50 pushups because 3 people didnt put down files
i think its somehow unfair. 3 people for 50 pushups
for something thats has got nothing to do with us?
wtf. around 40 pushups, my spine was giving way
my backbone cannot take it man
so i didnt really do the last 10

ahhh after that homed
slept all the way. till at 11pluspm
woke up have dinner and went back sleep

Saturday, 21th feb 2oo9
woke up around 8am
bathed and read newspapers
haha, weird i know!
found somebody's picture in the newspaper
hahaha quite weird to name him cos i dont really know him :)
then preped and headed to school
luckily wasn't late
fall-in and blah

setup instrument alrd
then mr er came
then after that warmed up and tuned up
sian~ can sleep man
cos he tuned us last.
then around 12.20pm, left for bassoon lesson
somehow i got sick of what mr sun's implying
cos im not the one who played the wrong style wrong rhythm
so its quite irritating when he kept repeating the same thing
looking at me.
so i just gave him the sorry-its-not-me-stop-looking face
and i think he got my hint
then he stopped talking and we continued
well, somehow everytime mr er popped up,
he was talking. haha
scarly later mr er thought we're slacking.

was playing cavetown at part J
and my lips really couldnt take it
and broke down at L.
darn.
then decided to breath per 2 bars
well im used to playing it at one shot
and seriously i think Benjamin cant make it to SYF
cos his tone's really Out.
if you've heard us playing you would have known
but he's improving.
really.

but well... :)
ended lesson around 2.30pm
then went back band room
thanks shimin help us da bao! :)
ate outside and went toilet
then went back in :)
band ended around 4.30
damn early, kept instrument
after that home sweet home :)
played with my hammies
and slept, till 9pm?
went back to my own bed and sleep
till 12.30am and dinnered
tved and now blogging

if you've realised
i kept sleeping
IDK why also
i think if i went back sleep just now
my head will spin spin spin
k, im gonna upload piccas and go sleep
its going to be 3am already!!

Maddddd about you

2009-02-20T02:28:00.002+08:00

Your actions tells a lot of what you're trying to do/think.

(on a side note: i've finished my F&N research!!!! im very proud of it because i heard from others that theirs only consist of 4-5 pages. i have 8 pages!!! heeeeeeehaw! HAHAHAHAH.)
k im gg to bed alrdy
goodnight sweethearts <3

So obsessed.

2009-02-19T20:48:00.002+08:00

Yay. Im not dead~
Mrs Lim let us go home finish!!
but im side-tracking!!! im like bloghopping and not doing my research!!!
scarly later i cant find someone to help me print again
then im dead.

found out something
he's a player.
ha. and he didnt even wish me happy birthday.
well, i think he's ugly now
but i think i still like him ):
cos i miss him so.

Ohgoodness
and my eyes looks so dark
cos i didnt remove my makeup thoroughly ytd
and i looked like someone boxed me in the eye
well...
haha
and i really (k, for a split second i forget what i wanted to write)

umm
i shall blog about my birthday celebrations when im done with my research k?
i think its good to blog with pictures.
=D so that i could describe.
so yeah.

anyway im so craving for a new phone
because right now my phone is damn outdated and lousy!
and i cant even CAMWHORE )))):
and that i feel embarassed when i take it out to SMS
but its currently impossible because im at war with my beloved father
and my mother is a goner
and there's no way my sis/bro could buy me a phone!
so yeah ))))))))))))):
but i really weally want a touchscreen phone!!!!
any phone with a good camera is wanted. ))))))):
okay seriously i sound pathetic
but well, i AM.
how i wish i have a rich boyfriend
haha! if you've seen my phone you will realise and know how pathetic am i
the phone dont even have:
camera
bluetooth
INFARED
and whatever stuffs you can expect

its a good phone to bring to army anw
k well. gotta start on my research!

F&N IS SO STRESSFUL
WHOEVER THINKS THAT F&N IS VERY EASYPEASYRICEANDCHEESY
OR THINKS THAT ITS SO SLACK
LEMME TELL YOU
ITS FUCKING TEDIOUS!
):

Happy day, not?

2009-02-19T06:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
(very belated. i know)
k im finally sixteeeeeeeeeeeeeeen!
well, im currently very irritated because my computer is moving at a speed that is slower than a 100years' old turtle.
damn it.
ive sat here since 6am
and its alrd 6.25 and i havent got anything done YET!
damnit!!!!
and seriously speaking! im gonna get hell from mrs lim later
i only knew it ytd that the research deadline was TODAY(19/2/09)
so yeah, if i were to tell her that i didnt know
she would have said, that i should ask my classmates
but the problem is, I DID ASKED. i asked Amanda.
and she said they did surveys and alil research
but she dint mentioned that the deadline is TODAY.
well, i cant/dont blame her. maybe she forget or smth.

AHHHHHHHHHH
and im pretty pissed off at somebody
hai. to think that he used to tell me
"see her face long will sian~"
then now? "see her face will make me want for more"
ohwell. and he didnt wish me happy birthday.
):
and, i believe that presents or not tells alot.
im not saying that you SHOULD and MUST buy me a present
but when someone says that he/she had no time to buy
its obviously an excuse.
time is created by your own hands
it depends on your sincerity.
if you meant to give, you could give me anything
if you dont meant to give, you will give me nothing but excuses.
see my point?
k cant blame people right.
have asp whole week.
well. k, im going to finish up my survey
i dont think i will do my research

but, i think i will skip band later
then continue my asp
i seriously have no time to finish!!!!

Expression.

2009-02-17T22:33:00.002+08:00

Helloooooooooooooooooo
im supposed to blog ytd
but im very tired
i realised that i cannot sit infront of a computer for too long.
cos when i stand up i will feel giddy.
ahhhhhhhhh
and i cant wait for tomorrow
i wonder who will send me birthday messages,
who will gimme prezzies.
i know im very BHB. haha
whatever.

k and miss yeow's last day's tmr~
on my birthday somemore.
lollllllllllllllllllll
i will update full post soon
maybe on a weekend or thursday
cos im going out to celebrate my bday with my siblings tmr!
^^
and i realised im not very on-task
i have alot of uncompleted work
and im not having enough sleep
ahhhhhh
im going to visit my hamsters and my bed
then i shall go bathe
im freaking tired!

OHYA
and i was so sick just now
and my beloved VP mrs shariff dont let me go home!
i wanted to go home during lit, which was like ard 9plus
and wento GO and the office clerk asked mrs shariff out
and she asked me why i wanna go home etc.
the part i hated most was:
you dont look sick to me jane
dont try to pretend
or something like that
DAMN! her tone was so super irritatingly sarcastic!
please la, migraine how you want me show on my face?
besides my voice changed cos i had flu & cough
was freaking pissed and went back to lit class
thanks kenneth for the accompany :)
get well soon (lol, he's got flu~)

k then miraculously i sat beside suranthi and jiongxun
great huh.
and throughout the day my headache kept coming back
at that point of time i really hated her
what if a student was really sick
but the sickness couldnt be expressed on her face
how i wish i had fainted in school
then she would be blamed and be guilty
i really felt like fainting lor
but i scared concussion cos you will hit the floor
LOL. whatever
its a god's blessing that i have such a vice-principal
how great. how i wished it was mrs fiona tan whom i've seen
rather than her.

i disliked her since the day i saw her
with her head held high
she asked everyone to keep quiet during an assembly
man, i just feel like screwing her up
ohwell. im so childish
fancy getting angry over some wrinkled face *oops
K IM GOING OFF ALRD
AND I LOST MY SS WORKSHEET
DAMN

*IM EXCITED FOR TMRRRRRR
and im getting well soon!
yay!
k bye!

Whispered emotions.

2009-02-16T19:59:00.002+08:00

this was my normal practice :)

If I were a boy,

2009-02-13T00:05:00.001+08:00

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

If i were a boy's MV

the MV's nice
but you need to understand it.
haha, i watched twice to get it. -.-

PICCAS POST!

2009-02-12T22:57:00.010+08:00

Bottom-most is the overdued ones
Topmost ones is the latest ones :)
You dont have to make any comments on any of the photos :)
Enjoy! =D
*ALL ARE NON-EDITED*
*ORIGINAL*

Fall in love with me.

2009-02-12T22:37:00.002+08:00

K. this will be a long post.
overall, days are passing damn fast, like in a blink of an eye.
and can you imagine that yesterday i slept through the whole day?
i reached home at 6.30pm and i slept at 7pm all the way till next morning 5.30am?!
damn it, im a pig man.
i got a shock when i woke up.
ahhhh yet i appeared to have a not-enough-sleep-face.
so. today's a long day
F&N break at 2.30 - 3pm
then 3pm got F&N asp, i attended till around 4pm
cos i wantd to finish my interview, and i finished it =D
after that attended band.
ohwell, basically im damn tired today
and the band sounds noisy. lol.
eCon-ed and homed :)

just felt like posting something.
you have the liberty not to read.
like it or not, its on my blog.
dont like dont read lor.
im not pointing a gun at you.
k whatever. its seriously random
i've been thinking a lot recently.

sometimes i feel that people have to consider how others are feeling
in terms of what they say what they do or whatever shitz
if you dont like me/hate me/detest me/dislike me or WHATEVER~
then jolly well dont cross roads with me.
k i mean, dont come into the same pathway as me (la).
isnt it as simple as ABC.
the funny thing is, you cross the same pathway as me yet you still give me that stupid look.
i dont know what's that for. but i think that its very childish.
someone did that to me today
she just pushed her way through when she's so short and fat
and carrying this bag, i think its kinda heavy
then she just pushed her way through
she KNOWS im there.
so? she's trying to tell me that its on purpose?
to me, i will only think that its very childish.
in secondary school already still act like some pri 5/6 ahlianish immature people.
k. its seriously irritating when people dont like me
they have to gossip out LOUD that they dont like me
or whatever la. its just getting me on my nerves
hating people is a WASTE of time.
i'd rather you talk about other stuffs, happier stuffs
and not some I-HATE-YOU-HATE-ME kinda thing
its so old school. please.
& seriously, i hate it when people have to proclaim their arrival
king? queen? you're just a student. for goodness sake
dont have to tell the whole world XXX is arriving.
doesnt concerns anybody anyway
and i hate people who is damn FAKE
fake in how they tried to approach people
its so obvious, like goddamn obvious
its almost like its written on your face
how fake or insincere you are in having this friend.
not to me, maybe to others.
outsiders knows best.

k, so thats the whole paragraph of my frustrations.
and, because i missed school on tuesday
now i dont know how to do multiplication of matrices
im missing out on ALOT.
not really miss out. but i keep never do homework!!
and seriously, im like PACKED EVERYDAY.

monday- maths asp
tuesday- science asp
wednesday- english asp
thursday-F&N asp & BAND
friday-chinese asp & BAND
sat- BAND
sun- REST DAY/outing day

seeeeee!
darn it. why must thursday have band
if no band i still can catch up F&N cos i'm like lagggged behind
and mrs yoga asked me which subjects i wanna have distinctions in,
i said,
1) POA
2) chinese
3) F&N

LOL she gimme a face. (idk how to describe)
then she say why isnt possible to have A1 for Maths
as long as you put in the distinction effort you sure get it
but now im not putting in ANY effort at all
so i cant possibly be slacking my way through
and i hate it when i lose my concentration
and i became distracted.
maybe i ought to be like Alex.
go home, bathe, eat, tv, homework, sleep.
nice plan right! at least i get to study
but mine is,
go home, play w/ hamsters, rest, dinner, tv, comp, bathe, sleep
SEE WTH LA.
ahhh and he sleeps at 11pluspm everyday
i sleep at like 1plusam-2plusam

so i need to change my schedule
from NEXT WEEK ONWARDS
kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
seriously
i need to stop using the computer
its a distraction
esp with the new LCD monitor,
seemed like it had a notice that said, "C'MON USE ME!!!"
and its BLACK, SO SHINY SO NICE!
LOLOL
whatever.

and im like damn craving for a touchscreen phone
i think Samsung Pixon looks nice and has 8 MP (megapixel)
if im not wrong.
AND!!! IM GETTING MY VIVITAR ON SATURDAY
SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMS*
heeeee
damn excited................... :)
bro asked me what i want MOST for my birthday
i said,
a branded waterbottle
a branded pencilcase
a pair of pumps/flats(must be black)
then i ask him gimme $25 for the shoes (of course excess i keep la)
LOL
then he say, can give 16 not. i say cannot
gimme 18 cos i 18th feb bday
then he say no la, 16 k
then when my bday you gimme 19
im like WA THEN YOU EARN 3$
wth.

k i know my post looks choppy
im gonna upload photos later!

I kinda fell outta love again
HEE.

Tell me how i look like a fool, telling myself i would never find a good man like you.

2009-02-10T19:33:00.001+08:00

Okay, itchy hands go press till "enter"
lol.
wanted to post ytd.
undergone something very.. sad.?
so, had halfday ytd because of the good o level results achieved last year.
coool, they worked hard and we got the reward. hehe
so yeah. had lessons till 11:30
and seriously speaking, i think mdm ida sometimes suck big time.
idk if its her voice or what.
but yeah. :)

homed and preped
left house around 1.20pm
I WAS THE FIRST TO REACH MANZ
COOOL. first time, i was the first.
HAHAHHAHAHA
then followed by Fion then Kristin.
wanted to have the Mac Value lunch as lunch
but they were late, oh welll...
saw Reuben and his friend anw :)
lunched in Yoshinoya. damn that fucked up face woman
the one with a tatt on her hand, damn.
then ate and wento Popular and got some stuffs
i realised i need to get a THESAURUS (or whatever.)
got some envelopes and wento SKCC to pack it
and mailed it out!! =D

then trained to dhobyghaut.
bought tix for Bride Wars.
walked around and Kristin dabao-ed her Chippys
and Fion, her pretzel.
then.
went up and i bought my K(something) pizza
i forget whats that called!!! LOL
k, smell was great, taste wasnt very good. lol
look nice only!!!!
Bride wars is NICE, superb
i nearly teared, but couldnt cos i was having my makeup on.
5/5 for that!!!
damn niceeeeeee~
"my hair is BLUE, ITS BLUEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
HAHAHAHAHA
kwdv.

then walked around?
spent quite some time in the toilet camwhoring.
what else could you expect if you're out with me?
hahahaha
im a camwhorer, not that im a whore.
geddit?
lol.
then trained home.
was using the computer and it hanged.
then i went to sleep.

woke up this morning
and i suddenly have VERY obvious double eyelids
and my face like very swollen
till that my sissy said, "did you drink alot of water before you sleep ytd?"
okay, maybe not swollen.
but puffy? :)
so yep.
didnt go school today.
slept till like 3pm then got my lazy ass up
GONNA FINISH F&N COURSEWORK TODAY!!!!
okay, im gonna upload piccas soon!
bye~

I was the girl, i was the young one.

2009-02-09T01:30:00.005+08:00

Okay! as promised,
the preorder is up!
gonna upload it later at my blogshop~

preorder details:
sgd20 each,
free size,
available in black/grey.
capping at 10, getting stocks on sat/sun.
support me! thanks! =D

alrighty, so was rushing through the piccas just now
and couldnt help but to edit some overdued pics.
heeeee
and i havent studied for my ST!!!
i think tmr then i study.
my head is going dizzy and my eyes is closing!
so much for a LAZY SUNDAY!
am i an Olevel student or what.
ohno.
okay, bye!

sorry for the spastic face. but you gotta learn to get used to it!

happy 18th birthday!

sometime back!
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PLEASE EMAIL ME @
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THANKS VERY MUCHIE!
9DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY.
WOOOOOO

Save me from the pool of ruins,

2009-02-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

okay! here to update.
i realised that my last update was thursday.
so anyway, friday was alright.
'cept that i missed out most of the band lesson cos i was downstairs with the repairman fixing my instruments :)
was dismissed early, 5pm was fall-ing in already =O
then home sweet home :)

saturday, 070209

was late for band ):
then ran 5 rounds and went up with natalie :)
then blabla, lunch at 1230pm
thanks weili&wenxuan for buying, altho they got quite blur~
then cavetown for the whole day.
the melodies keep repeating and repeating till im so bored.
home sweet home after band :)
then, preped and left home around 7pm
wento Hougang mall and got some stuffs
saw a guy walking around with a parrot on his shoulder. ._.
then trained to Bugis.
was waiting for Kristin and co.
got bored, cos i reached early.

all along throughout,
my mind kept repeating the clarinet's melodies.
Lol, i know its absurd. but its reallllllllll
then finally they're out from their movies.
wento bugis street and got a dress for sissy and myself
couldnt resist. its so pretty. =D
then trained to Queenstown
went there to eat, then they were singing.
left around 11.40pm
no last train already.
me, kristin and ken trained to aljunied,
and he fetched his grandmother,
and he longbang us home =D
thanks ken! hahahah

homed around 1am -.-
feel so unwell, cos was carsick all the way
reached home and i wanted to puke so badly ):
then i wento sleep on my brother's bed
then i woke up at 6am, and i move back to my own bed.
haha! then woke up at around 12pm
but lazed on my bed and woke up around 3pm
Lol, was hungry and feeling giddy~
fry-ed egg and ate and tv-ed
planet cook is lame.
domokun is funny.
hahaha
okay.
basically spent my whole day at home, USING THE COMPUTER
bathed at 7pm
then changed my hamster's bedding and such
then dinnered and use comp again.
damn it, i seriously need some motivation~

and im gonna launch a new preorder soon!
gonna put it in my blog and blogshop
ending this sat! =D
okay, im gonna start on my F&N coursework alr
i mean, continue.
hahahaha
kay, bye!

ineeda~~valentine.~~

Stop short.

2009-02-05T22:51:00.002+08:00

Kay, I'm gonna post fast, bathe fast and sleep fast.
school's been draining me out.~
im so so so so extremely tired now.
i used to have nap, now dont even have time to nap ):
ohkay. so..
i was nearly late for school today.
i think i repeated that sentence for like, numerous times already?
hahahahahahahaha
i was very tired today, and kept yawning and blah.
lessons were boring today.
after school had band.
ended around 6.30pm

walked to rivervale mall
and got my dinner,
i was craving for KFC and i wento buy the Ultimate something meal (suddenly forgot)
the one with the shrooomz, then i changed the whipped potato to cheese fries
all added up to $8.
damn it. lol.
when im alone, i tend to overspend.
'cuz, idk! hahahaha
feels good i think?
trained home :)
ok, all along im alone.
hahaha

then reached home around 7?
i think im fast. LOL
then ate and watched tv.
i almost, almost, vomitted.
haha! too full already la.
somemore the chicken is crispy's.
close ones will know that i cant take spicynesssssss
and hot-ness burnt my tongue.
well, i finished everything though (:
left like a few fries give my brother
cos i dont want waste and im friggin' full alrd.

then started to use comp
had been lj-ing/blogshopping these few days
finding a dress for my second sis.
why am i finding it online? you may ask.
because...
i realise that i dont even have a close friend(s)
who is very steady. like anytime or whatever can go out that kind.
and im lacking of friends whom i could talk to, gossip to, confide to.
ohwell, was feeling (fill in the blank) the whole day today
simply just feel nothing, after english, all the way till Ss
when my "brother" mr melvin, couldnt crack my joke
and i laughed.
ha.
well..

its just a 1 week romance
i shouldnt take long to get over it
i keep telling myself this,
i think its working
my blogpost today is weird.
i dont know.
it look/sound weird to me
it isnt my usual blogging style
well, told ya
i think this week's my mood swing period.

okay so ya
im reallly really lacking friends
friends who can study/shop/talk with me
friends who could really listen to me
friends who really treats me as a friend
friends who will help each other no matter what
ya, im lacking of friends of both sexes
im feeling so lonely..
yes, lonely's the right word.

and, SORRY, incase you think im emo-ing
you're wrong.
this is not call emo-ing, this is called...
expressivo. okay, i dont think such word existed.
whatever!

i wanna have a wishlist,
my birthday's coming, in like 13 days?
been telling people about it
some people like it, some people dont.
some peope hate it, some people neutral
some people think too much, some people do not think much
ohwell, who cares?
i just do what i like, dont like too bad
cos alrd sec 4 liao, haha
bday one year once, dont do this time then when??
Lol

OKAY, so
here's my wishlist,

1) be happy
2) stay optimistic
3) CVMB get GOLD for SYF 09
4) new pencil case
5) branded waterbottle
6) contacts w/ astig
7) a touchscreen phone. (i fell in love with enqi's phone. haha, its pink)
8) more makeups ( i need a concealer and liquid eyeliner urgently!!!!)
9) slim down (i dont want double chin* haha)
10) have a better figure
11) more bags
12) more genuine friends
13) lesser hi-bye friends
14) lesser hypocritics in my life
15) sleep at 11pm everyday
16) have a birthday cake
17) have a happy birthday
18) have freedom
19) have a boyfriend who loves me
20) have a big massive hug from people who loves me.

OHKAY
haha thats my wishlist!!!
you'll have to add those which is in my profile
to this.
total would be more than 20
including my VIVITAR
im so excited!!!!!
in getting my vivitar!!!
okay,
so then

my neck hurts
my eye hurts
my head hurts
my heart ached.

BYEEEEE

Im so happy. & so glad.

2009-02-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

Ohwell, i was reallly sad just now.
and someone brightened my day up!
and that person is....
TOH BOON YUEN!

he cheered me up by,
buying me a vivitar/eximus for my birthday!
tell me, should i be happy or what!
HAHAHAHAHA
im like over-the-moon kay!
but the thing is,
im happy yes, but i still feel the pain.

i had a nap just now.
and it feels like,
i've got on anaesthetic (ma zui yao)
then when im having the surgery, i dont feel any pain
but when the anaesthetic wears off, the pain is so strong, so painful that
i could hardly control. its so painful, so dreaded that i felt the stitches
on my heart.
im serious and it really hurts.

anyhow,
im still happy overall
cos boonyuen a.k.a my best friend has successfully made my day!
friends forever bud.

thanks to kristin & fion too,
for cheering me up.
i appreciated it.

thanks to jianying,
for the encouraging words,
i felt that i needed them.

OKAY, so im off to bathe soon
and start on my homework!
THERES BAND TMR
AHHHHH AND THERES FANDN TEST
I HAVENT STUDY
DAMN IT
ahhh,

You broke my heart and left.

2009-02-04T20:04:00.002+08:00

Today's post will let people who've hated me to laugh out loud
today's post will also let people to say, serve you right.
whatever it is, i dont care-

Today's day aint good.
he totally spoilt my day inside out.
what else could i do?
i dont know what to blog.
let me blog my feelings k?

when he sent me that message during english asp
i was very upset, i didnt know what to do
i questioned him, and he said he tried
he couldnt commit into another relationship anymore
he made me fell in love with him
and he just walked away. just like that.
i cried and cried after i've reached home
talked to Fion on the phone and i cried too
my heart is painful.
i may seem dumb/foolish/silly to be crying over a relationship.
i treated it very seriously.
why must he do this to me?
sadly to say, i still love him,
after all the words i've said.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i need someone to mend it up
stitch up the hole he'd created.
Heartbreak.

save me,
im dying.

Something random.

2009-02-04T02:11:00.002+08:00

ok, something random to share.
hmmm,
i think that good things are meant to be shared.
if you really treat your good friend very well, you would want him/her to enjoy the benefits that you yourself is enjoying.
and similarly, if the good friend treat you as a good friend, him/her would want you to have the best of the best.

in other words, if the good friend doesnt treat you as a good friend,
him/her wouldnt thought/think of you when it comes to good things
and him/her would only think for his/herself and not you
and which means that whatever him/her do,
him/her doesnt really consider or put him/herself in your shoes.
which in turn means that,
if you wanna gauge if your friend is a good friend
then you can tell through his/her actions
through what him/her has done for you
example would probably be secrets in the first
and stuffs as the second
okay, i know i AM very random

i suddenly thought of this when i was passing by a random girl's profile
her friends has the exact same kind of texture of hair as her.
and i was wondering maybe they wento the same salon
and the girl recommended the stylist or whatever to her good friends
which in turn, her good friends has the same kind of texture of hair as her
they wouldnt label each other copycats, in this sense
becus it was the girl who recommended them the stylist/whatever
so that also meant that they have a really good friendship/relationship.
okay, so i think this girl is a very good friend.
hahaha
that was what i infer from her pictures la! hahaha

ohwell,
just my 2cents' worth.
xo

2009-02-04T01:04:00.003+08:00

*ohya
anw, i was wondering if anyone has a spare phone to lend me.
cos my pathetic baby k810i officially white-screened.
LOL. so, if you're kind enough and wanna lend me, please do!
hahaha i promise to take very good care of it! :D
i sound pathetic.....
well, i really am!
haaaaaa
im dying to know isaac's crush. :O
hahahaha

Love is blind, literally.

2009-02-03T22:59:00.003+08:00

Oh well! i wanted to blog that i was very super duper hungry
but yeah, i was on the phone with love, and Mac came!
hahahaha then yeah, am full now!
so, hmm, today's a tiring day.
was on the phone till like 3plus-4 with love ytd night.
then.. lessons same ba? (oh, i realised i havent done my SS)
okay. -.- hmm, i wondered why Kristin didnt come.
seriously, i didnt know the reason :O
hahahaha
then.. lessons ended around 2.30
had lunch with Fion in school.
til bout like going 3pm, simin told me that Mr Sun came already
i was like "?!"

cos actually lessons start at 3.15
he came earlier, and i was unprepared!
so rushed off and rushed like mad.
seriously. im like holding my instrument w/ case + files + 3 stands.
imagine that please. my arms nearly broke.
and alexia was carrying 2 bassoon cases.
and benjamin went MIA.
Lol.
then wento D3-o4 for our lesson
then setup and bla
benjamin finally came, guess where he was?

HE WAS AT THE LIBRARY READING
HAHAHAAHHAHAA
omg, i thought he went home.
hmmmm
then started our lesson, woooo
mostly was sight-reading, great.
heee and was glad that one of the songs i managed it well
cos i have been playing that piece since i was SEC 1
imagine that. LOL
then left like 45mins for SYF songs. :)
not bad, lesson ended late, around 5.15pm
kept and rushed back to Band room to put our instruments
and passed the keys to Mr Chan.
home sweet home after that.

was dead beat when i reached home
bathed and fell asleep
woke up around 9plus pm
I WAS DAMN FREAKING HUNGRY
lol, waited till like 11pluspm, my brother called my father
and he said hes at his friend's house & he havent buy dinner yet
we're like WTF.
we're going to become hungry ghosts already.
then decided to order Macs.
saviour man!!!
but $8 flew outta my pocket, which i intended to save up for sis' bday prezzie
aw! ):
anw, im going to do my stuffs alrd
meeting love tmr, <3
heeeeee

bye!

2009-02-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

OKAY.
i know im irritating.
hahahaha
so many posts in a day.
kk, so i've made up my mind.
im gonna save up for a toy camera. c:
maybe gonna use some of my angpow moneh.
heeee
okay, im seriously GOING off to do my homework
shant touch computer till wed or something
bye!

I've made up my mind.

2009-02-02T17:31:00.002+08:00

kay, i wanna get a vivitar US&W
but unfortunately! vivitar is not producing anymore..
instead eximus is a complete replica of vivitar US&W.
eximus also US&W la. hahahaha
but it costs $46!!!!!!!!!!
and its an all plastic kind of camera
aww but i am really tempted although i think i only have 1/4 info of what is a vivi aka exi
))))):
love is pestering me to do my homework. hahah
and my eyes is getting tired and my head is spinning~
ohwell,
BUT MAIN POINT IS,
i really weally want a eximus!

okay, if you're like wondering what the hell am i talking.
they are all cameras.
the one i got interest in is, vivitar ultra slim & wide
then eximus ultra slim & wide
and they works on 35mm film
okay. thats all i know
heee
byeeee

Vivitar.

2009-02-02T15:39:00.003+08:00

Hello folks!
gave school a miss today, was feeling really sick in the morning,
including the fact that i dint do most of my homeworks :)
anw, woke up around 12pluspm?
lol, bathed, and cooked instant noodles as lunch.
and im now researching on vivitars. interested in getting one man. *hints*
HAHAH okay, im kidding. =D
anw, lemme update about ytd.

1 february 2009

woke up at 11am?
bathed prepd and went down to meet Love.
then trained to plaza sing, and bought tix for Inkheart.
went to 77th street and got a prezzie for Kinweng :)
then went up cinema.
hmm, rate inkheart 4/5 stars? i like. =D
prolly cuz i liked fantasy/fairytale-like stories.
hahahaha
maggie(?) is pretty. :D
after that trained to Bugis, was finding for the BHG's staff entrance for a meetup.
got my hoodie, damn. its kinda thin. hahaha
then i sent Love to the mrt station and i walked to Junction to find Daiwei they all.
only saw Daiwei and Lennard, acc them buy Kinweng's prezzie
and they got a superman belt for him! hahaha

then went arcade find the rest, namely, Kinweng, Jinsheng, Ken, Weikiat, Yew wei.
then Kristin came. walked to the steamboat place and settled ourselves down.
thanks to the guys helping us take the food, hahaha.
okay, i mean thanks. hahaha
idk how to phrase it. :)
then ate and such, Eve came after awhile :)
then Daiwei and Eve wento buy Kinweng's bday cake
hahaha
he was surprised and happy. i guess? :D
bday songs for him and we sang real loud.
hee
cut cake and ate :)

left the steamboat place around 8?
Kinweng cabbed home then :)
then we went arcade. then Eve and Yew wei left.
left with, Daiwei, Kristin, Lennard, Jinsheng, Weikiat, Ken and me :)
afterward, me and kristin trained home leaving the guys.
hahaha they went bugis street ;)
went compass bought drinks and home sweet home :)
bathed and slept, damn tired.

nevertheless,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KINWENG! =D

Define it.

2009-02-02T15:33:00.002+08:00

Hello! some really nice bassoon videos,
good for those who dont know what my instrument looks like. :)

Kirby on Bassoon: Foo Fighter's "Pretender"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyI3Cp4J61U

Katie Bartel Rockin' Bassoon

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZZ6HIWe86po

Weber Concerto for Bassoon and Orchestra II.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxDQnvvAb4s

Weber Concerto for Bassoon and Orchestra III.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hF3yChXdrmw

Alright, hope its watchable.
cos they're really great videos that i sieved out from youtube!
=D

Like i have alot to say. its all trapped.

2009-02-01T01:37:00.002+08:00

Hellllo!
okay, now for a more happier post.
damn it. that Vicky really pissed me off.
dont compare me with her. EWWWWWWWWW *pukes*
whatever.
:D

alrighty,
so i woke up around 8plus
feeling sick, but still went for band anw
was late. got a shock when i saw Mr Er.
i mean, i freaked out. haha! cos i thought he wasnt coming :)
then setup and warmed up and bla.
then played Overture 2, and he said it was good.
and i think Brenda's very lihai, at her solo part.
like wowwwww. omggg. im serious kkkkk.
k, so he said it was good.
he was happy
i am happy
everyone was happy.
hahahhahaha
then actually have lunch. but suddenly he say alot people have visiting to do
then become halfday.

then wento KFC,
lunched with,
jasmine,joyce,esther,natalie,simin,peiyun,shimin,jingwen,brenda,jason,kenneth,kiathao.
lol, long list.
then initially going to natalie house but something cropped up
then in the end trained home, but i wanted to go pet shop
so jasmine pei me to Cp's pet shop and i bought an exercise ball for my hammies ;D
then trained home again :D
reached home, was on the phone with love, and was multi-tasking.
reading, playing with my hamsters and talking on the phone
till round 7? then hanged and i continued with my book
and i finished it, wento bathe and dinner was back =D
then started on my chinese compo, i wrote like 3 and half pages long!!
so proud of myself!!! HAHAHAHAH
then yeah, do till just now 1am like that
going out tmr and celebrating kinweng's birthday as well.
actually, i dont know when's his birthday
sunday or monday. hahaha

ok, thats all!
bye~

anw! i think that its scary when people have two faces
person A can be very good with you yet can backstab you behind your back.
*ouch. it hurts.
ohwell, thats life.
:)

Piece of fucking shit

2009-02-01T01:24:00.003+08:00

Alrighty! i shall reply the tag from Vicky. (:
Hi Vicky, i welcome you to my blog.
firstly, i didnt expect anyone to correct my english, not to say that my english is purrr-fect.
but whatever, get my point?
secondly, i dont even think you're Vicky, much less to Tom, Dick or Harry.
you understand what the fuck am i saying? sorry, i think fuck aint in your dictionary. OOOOPS.
thirdly, maybe i should not have replied you so rudely.
but please, if you wanna correct someone, do it in sucha way that its polite.
P-O-L-I-T-E, hope i dint get it wrong. Lol.
if you corrected me in this way, you'd better not expect to get a decent reply from me.
i can tell & its pretty obvious that you've been following my blog,
thats why you knew about the correcting thing.
and please, its like a totally different thing.
to see "imma" being used wrongly, (if you've even READ her blog, you would know what im saying) its so irritating.
and me using shag, its a common word which people are always using for describing them as tired and such. okay, and i dont think that shag & tired got a very big difference
SHAG = AFTER SEX YOU ARE SO DAMN FUCKING TIRED
TIRED = TIRED.
so end result= TIRED
okay, get that in your sticky brain or whatever.

LASTLY, if you think that im rude or whatever shitty big fuck
i dont even give a damn
because if you dont like me detest me dislike me or whatever
then jolly well dont read la
its as EASY as A-B-C.
you dont have any wrong correcting me
but i hate it when you compared me with her.
its disgustingly gross and it pissed the shit out of me.
like for fucking goodness sake.

you may think that im making a big fuss out of it
but i hate it when people insult me directly or indirectly
or talking rudely.
like, I DONT OWE YOU A FUCKING LIVING
get that in your peabrain.

THANKS AND GOODBYE. =D
xoxo

Vivid Images.

2009-01-30T01:20:00.002+08:00

Videos-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M-s2ycoFxBw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

Okay, apparently i wanted to post up the videos earlier.
however, firefox cant load blogger.com >.>
as well as facebook.com
which is kinda irritating.
lemme update about today then.

hmm, i was nearly LATE today
why? because the stupid lifts in my block is retarded
i think they got cursed by a witch or something.
funnily, Lift C stopped at 10th, 9th, 8th, 7th, 6th, and go down all the way to 1st floor
WTF? i think Lift C dont like me.
then nevermind, i waited for Lift A to be kind.
But! Lift A was pathetically coming down from 17th, 15th and so on.
took sucha loooong time.
Lift B was busy doing some unnecessary stuffs.
so, i couldnt wait for Lift A already, then i just scrambled down the stairs
lucky i stay on a single digit level. c:
then on the way to school, 1st bell rang.
then im like wtfuck.
ahhh

so, Town Council should seriously make lifts faster.
so screwed up plz.
then had CT time, and was Bio
got back test, hmmm
i failed. LOL
then was Chinese,
i dont get why she's going through all the goodworks for like 2 days?!
when she havent even give us back our book
and i wasnt even listening.
Chinese compo's lecture was a waste of time, seriously.
was busy reading straits' time, from monday's
wth
lolz

then was English
mmm, had a change of seating arrangement.
sat with Amanda :)
aww, Fion and Kristin sit so far far away from me ):
but im sitting super near the door, like beside only.
lolllllllllllllll
then i went back class take my wallet and wento canteen to meet them.
ate wanton noodles? lol, the uncle seriously cook damn slow!!!
whateverrrrrrrrr
then was SS, something happened.
sorry, but i seriously think its funny. and i went LOL-ing
like laughing hysterically(sp)
machaim siaolang.
LOL.

then was Maths
aw, got back my maths SD test.
13/25, lucky never fail, but i passed by 1/2 mark
-.-
was freaking cold during Maths cos of the airconnnnn
and got homework!
darn it.
then was F&NNNNN
had quizzz, i dint study. Lol
10 marks only.
then spend time on the investigative activity
all the way till 3.30pm

then went up band room.
woah, so many sec 1s.
and so many short short cute cute boys.
LOL.
then got a boy, and coincidentally,
he's from NORTH SPRING PRIMARY!!!
damn happy, like damn happy.
LOL, idk why, but yeah :)
then i asked him about the teachers who've taught me
most of them still there :)
then like so cooool la!
omggg then asked him things about NSPS. =D
but! he's not in bassoon. cos he's not suitable.
hahaha
had sectionals, was pretty harsh on my juniors
cos they simply didnt know how to count.
ohwell. :) be happy that i didnt punish.
hahaha
then when i thought can go home alr
i wento keep my instrument
and then people started coming back and i asked ard,

can keep alr?
NOBODY KNOWS
OMG. LOL
then in the end have to go in -.-
played awhile, and home sweet home alr
read my book awhile and slept :)
oh, and its like 2am now!
would like to blog something random:

i was deleting music(s) in my computer
then i randomly wento my old folders
and i saw the old photos of me and jianying and sini.
like, we were real good last time man.
the pictures, brought back memories
us, smiling sweetly and looking noob (esp me)
then, wento jianying's aunt's house to slack and so on.

then was my photos with jianying alone
i looked so horribly ugly, and there were pictures of us,
coming back from study trips, me in my most horrid hair
they saw it all.
and, my fringeless days, my noob days.
hahahaa.
how i miss those memories, awww ):
i remembered we discussed about staying tgt when we are grownups next time,
having kids, and having each other as the kids' gan ma.
like, all these seems to have been in the past.
):

well, i dont mean anything in this 2 paragraphs
its just how i felt, when i saw those photos, photos of memories
wanted to put anonymous(s) but well,
no harm done even if i had your names there.
because its all in the past. :)

Oh, and im pretty packed these few days
ah! im going to sleep already
bye bye bye bye
ilovemybf.
haha.
random.

Roses are red.

2009-01-28T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hello!
Gonna post, i think it'll be long one? :)
so anw,

26th January 2009

happy chinese new year!
LOL, woke up at 11plusam
and prepared, then bused to Woodlands interchange alone.
cos i've got a meetup. hahaha.
then after that i decided to go Causeway Point to see if i could buy my stuffs there
but apparently, like only those fast food restaurants are opened!
im like ._.
then i bused all the way back again, but to Compass Point.
and hoooray! Watsons' is opened. *beams

then bought some stuffs and home sweet home :)
oh, i saw Jiajun and his friend on the way to Compass :)
hahaha *random*
then homed, bathed, prepd, changed.
took a loooong time, till like almost all my relatives are here then im ready. >.>
then took angbaos and such and chit chatted?
soon after, my siblings and me played daidi, lose one must do housework -.-
then yea, i lost once. ._____________.
then after that played blackjack with my cousins and aunt.
lolll, total lost $10.
not bad? =.=

then was dinner
after dinner played mahjong
after majong, i was totally shagged out
prolly cos i woke up early.
then chatted w/ my cousin about make-ups
loll, heart itchy man!
then, my second sis' friends came, which includes denzel's brother, delvin *okay, random fact*
hahahaha
then they gambled with my aunt.
and after that, they left for movies and my relatives went home too
around 1am, all cleared.
damn tired!!!!
removed makeup and slept.

-

27th January 2009

woke up at like 10plusm am
went back sleep and woke up at 1plus-2
then bathed prepd and such.
left house around 4pluspm?

trained to dhobyghaut to meet Rayner.
was late for an hour. haha! ^^
then i had late lunch at LongJohns'
and he watched me eat -.-
damn awkward~
then went up cinema, bought tix for The Wedding Game.
hmm, rate 5/5 ?
i like the movie :)
hahaha

then after that walked around
not much places to go to, cos most shops are not opened.
then wento Daiso and bought some stuffs :)
aftermath, trained to Cityhall and walked to Esplanade
wento nearby hawker to eat, chat and took photos :)
and he acc me train back my house :)
while i acc him wait for bus :)
hahaha
reached home around 11pluspm.

was damn blooody tired
then bathed and started doing my SS homework
slept around 3plusam after playing w/ my hammies.
heeeeeeeeex100

-

28th January 2009

woke up at around 7am
but was damn tired then went back to sleep
woke up again and was nearly late for school
ran like some mad girl to school and panting like maddddd~
then had assembly and blah, and had SS for first period
damn it, theres class test. sure fail.
lol, then was LCE, busy reading storybook :)
then was English, funny things kept happening :)

then Recess,
started queueing at 11am and got our food at 1115?
why? cos people infront keep increasing = people cutting queues
damn it. why cant people just queue properly and everyone gets their food fast.
*im not referring to people right infront of me.*
im referring to people way way infront.
its really irritating la! __
so, councillors in school are useless.
oh well, sorry. :)
primary school prefects are like way better plszx.
sorry, im oh-so-straightforward, =D
if you feel guilty then it means you aren't doing your job well.
yep? :D

ah, then was late for going up -.-
councillors good at chasing people up
but not chasing queue-cutters away
wtf is this? lol. thinking of it alone is irritating enough
whatever, then had poa.
got back test, 14.5/25? worse test ever. ):
then was F&N, damn cold in the computer lab
and, i was busy reading my book. nice time to read and i got caught by mrs lim, great.
hahahaha
then just randomly surf-ed net for like 10mins and we're off.

wento Kovan, looking for petshops with Kristin.
but never open, so we bused to Hgmall
wanted to buy things. but its not opened.
wento the Pet Lovers' Centre instead.
bought a silent wheel, bathtub, bathing sand, gnawing stone for my hammies!
lucky fatty got a $6 plus wheel.
hahahahaha
silent wheel :D
then trained back home :D

homed, bathed.
started using comp
till now please!!!!
11pm alr
gonna log off and go do my homeworks.
damn it.
so many things to do, so little time.
time not enough!!
-

oh, a random question to ponder when you're free,
it applies to all sexes, homosexuals, bisexuals, transexuals, or whatever.
LOL.
if your best friend calls you up, when you're about to hit the sacks after a long and tiring day,
would you pick up?
after you've picked up, your best friend tells you that he/she is damn very fucking sad
will you listen to your friend?
or will you get some excuse and go to sleep?
after awhile, will you tell him/her that you are tired and want to hang or continue listen
through the night?

think about it.
i think i've mentioned this before
but its something worth thinking,
isnt it?

and, random*
i hate it when people upload tons of pictures,
in the same outfits doing different poses,
lag my comp big time! LOL
and, i was searching for vivitars just now
and i clicked on a virus site and now my comp have virus
WTFFFFF!!!
>.<
okay, bye!!!

Addicted.

Im stucked in a misery that no one can help.

2009-01-25T14:25:00.002+08:00

Helllooooooooooooooooooooooooo
have been busy packing and packing. :)
hmm, friday, quite a good day :)
actually going out after school, but i was damn tired
prolly cos i didnt get enough sleep the day before and that i played basketball-cum-captains' ball during PE.
)))):

then i slept through the afternoon and woke up during evening :)
dinnered and starting packingggggg
and ytd woke up around 12plus pm
sissy treated everybody to pizza
and started packing at 2pm
ended work at night and i read finish a book!!

its called, "Adoration Of Jenna"
its NICE. :D
its about a girl who fell into coma and just woken up
and she forgotten everything at first and slowly she recovered her memory
and found out that her best friends were dead.
(this is my summary la, the summary behind the book is crappish)

okay and i slept around 12midnight
damn tired!
and today i woke up at 12pm again and wento bathe
actually going out, and im waiting for my sis
now she tell me she dont want go alr
then i sian, duno want go out anot
cos i need to get some stufffffs!!

tell me
should i go OR not???
theres mahjong show at 8pm today!!
MUST-WATCH
hahahahaha
mahjong addict~

k, happy chinese new year in advance!
incase i didnt make it to wish.
hehe
bye!
( i think im going, cos theres really impt stuffs i need to get.)

Time will tell.

2009-01-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

HI!
here to post :)
short post i think?
everytime i wanna post then my eldest sis come back
then i cannot post alrd
short post bout how i felt these few days

was damn stressed up and fucked up these 2 days
cos my bro keep ask me pack room
and it goes stinging in my ears.
and my eldest sis too
which made me in turn, hate cny
its so damn irritating
then the dust all fly up
and i keep sneeze
and my eyes got infected and became abit swollen.

then make me damn pissed off with myself.
cos like the weather also very hot and so on
shant blog much

but anw, i found out something.
not really found out but i manage to disect(sp?) the blog post
damn it.
if you wanna post something to someone just post it out in black & white la
what for must make white and make some retarded fonts to it or whatever.
ya
and i cant stand this couple,
they're SOO OUTSTANDING in the school
wearing red & black striped cardigan
maybe its none of my business but you know,
the colour is too striking and its hurting my eyes.
haha. ya la, just a comment anw
im going to bathe alr :)
byeeeeee

Im so dead.tired.

2009-01-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

Hellllllllllllooooooooo
no time to post a long post like i did in the past
my right eye is in pain! and im sniffing like crazy
was packing my room just now, and the dust just took me over
)))):
damn it and i havent finished my homework!!
time is SO NOT enough for me!

randomly, i thought about some stuffs that i want
but no one can accomplish it. i mean, fufil my wishes.
hahaha
1) new phone
2) a laptop for my own
3) surprises.

yea, i mean for my birthday la
lol, its like on 18 feb?
coming soon, after chinese new year :)
okay, TTFN
*sniffs*

I need sleep.

2009-01-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

AHH
im so freaking tired
i know you must be thinking, 'tired still can blog, i'd rather you sleep!'
not i dont want sleep la. just that the shows on tv is toooo tempting
esp yizhimei~
hee

so anw, im extremely tired today
PE for first lesson, and it was FUN!
long time no play captains' ball alrd.
then had around 20minutes of captains' ball
and it was fun! and it just sucks that i cant shoot the freaking ball in
for so many times ):
lolll
then had english, and was chinese.
and was recess....
was so damn crowded, and i was wondering why cant people be more SELFLESS and
just put their retarded bags into their retarded classrooms.
the bags are occupyin the spaces rather than the people. -.-
so its rather retarded that we sat somewhere away
but its a good thing tho! :)

then was POA
then after that had lunch at canteen with Kristin :)
she left for home while i went for band.
so qiao, mr sun come alrd
so i hurried up and setup instrument..
and got the keys, heard nat say D3-05
then i go D3-05, got infocomm club people,
then go D3-04, got choir people.

then i run up, and find the teacher
in the end i see the key tag,
it was D2-O5
wth. ran back again and went down
there EV next door tho.
was damn sweaty and tired. ):
and began our lesson.
got new reeds! :) :) :) :)
and we practiced on set piece and choice piece.
i play till sian alrd, lollllllllllllllllll
then went back combine, and bassoon there so damn squeezy

felt that some people are rather buey zi dong
cannot move in when theres this huge fucking big gap in between their chairs..
and they just "act ignorant" or whatever la
irritating, much.
and ya la, its just so very squeezy and nobody wanna move or help
only junjie helped me to move in my chair so i could enter.
the rest are like "blind"
oh well.
typical singaporeans. :)
if you are in my situation, maybe you would have said the same things
so, no offence to anybody who has a guilty conscience.
but anyway, i dont really care
cos im speaking the truth. :)

ah, enough.
then after that played Zu Fu Ni.
and then band dismissed
went down and ran the 7 rounds that i owed Simin
damn it, on the 5th round, my chest suddenly very pain
and couldnt breathe..
but i finished the 7 rounds tho..

home sweet home after that.
dog-tired.
and was playing my hammie after i got home
damn it, he doesnt like the tires i've got for him
needa get the wheel(?) asap.
suddenly forget the word. lol

and, yea
spent my time on computer again!!!
people are like doing revisions, yet i keep using the computer and watching tv
i definitely dont look like someone whos taking Os in a few months later.
darn it
im going to bathe and sleep
theres BAND TMR
HOPE I DONT SLEEP
BUT IM SUPER FREAKIN' TIRED!!!
ok, bye!

and my pet leveled up!!!
=D i mean pet society.
^^

2009-01-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

okay! i havent gone off yet
its going to be 12am soon
and i was told to post this:

Boonyuen's my best friend/best buddy/best pal! =D
^^
so yep.
and theres tons of things i need to buy
note: its a NEED!
not a want.
;)

Im so slack!!

2009-01-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

Okay. as you can see
i spent my day using the computer and SLEEPING
WHICH SUCKS.
so i must get rid of using computer habit
and finish my homework and aim to sleep at 12am everyday
k, im going to bathe now
BYE

and that girl apologise to me
LOL?!?!?!
ok, bye!

A reason for what i felt.

2009-01-15T02:26:00.002+08:00

DAMNit.
was bloody fucked up by this girl,
my customer actually..
i posted out the wooden bangles ytd and when she received it,
she claimed that it was broken.
and the way she write the email is like so,
UNREASONABLE. WTFUCK.
i came online with a happy mood,
and she just bloody fucking destroyed it
damn pissed off that i used back the same tone to her.

SORRY! CUSTOMERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT WHEN THEY ARE RIGHT
wrong means wrong, right means right.
and its like, i got random colours instead of the colours i wrote on my blogshop
i didnt even noticed. -.-
my other girls received alr like SO HAPPY.
she leh! reply back like some bloody bitchx
sorry, if she sees this then too bad
i dont bloody care you are my customer or what fuck
you offend me i shall curse and swear till your nose drop off
ah. damn bloody angry.

on top of that fact that
im supposed to hand in my F&N task analysis TOMORROW
and that MY COMPUTER SPOILT
and my sissy needed her laptop
and i spent my day sleeping
VERY GREAT HUH! im gonna get shit from mrs lim
damn today just suckxzzxzxzczx to the core
only just one thing that made me smile (:
ha! i bet fion & kristin knows what im saying
maybe not one thing but two!
whatever it is
my mood is like on a roller coaster
it goes UPPPPPPP sometimes and DOWNNNNNN sometimes
which is really terrible.

whatever it is
its already like 2.30am liao!
i havent sleep yet. i scared tmr i oversleep again
ah ): and i dont know how to do my MATHS!!!
cos i missed one lesson on tues then i dont know how to do alr
)): sad thing is i have no close friends in my maths class
which is pretty pathetic
ah
life just sucks
sometimes i feel that im not needed at all.
at anywhere, by anyone
Like a calefare,

ahhhh see
my mood goes down again
im just so bloody stressed maybe
i've got homework to do everyday
which cannot be done during lessons
i need a saviour
i need love, maybe.
DAMN IT

GOODNIGHT.
whoever have a spare laptop can lend me, i will love you to death.
serious. cos in this kind of time, i really need a computer
not to blog, to do my project.
darn it.
serious! who have lappy can lend me, i love die you.
hahahah translate into chinese :) :) :)
AH.
IM GOING TO HUNT FOR MS WORD.
fuckit

Disappointed.

2009-01-13T17:20:00.002+08:00

Hello people :)
im terribly upset with myself.
because i OVERSLEPT.
yes. freaking overslept for school! ):
this is like the first time in my life that i overslept for school!
unbelievable? yes, its true.
exceptions to those that at least i could go to school.
but this time i woke up at 10plus am!!!
i woke up because my house downstairs damn noisy
some construction work was going on. drilling and drilling and more drilling
irritating.

when i woke up, my first reaction was like,
eh? why i wake up so late ah? today what day.
then i keep think think think then i realised that i OVERSLEPT.
you may think that im making a huge fuss over it.
sorry. but i think that everyday in this period of time till end of Os is IMPORTANT.
to me, at least.
ya la. so im damn friggin' pissed with myself.
however, i craved for some eggs.
haha! so i wento fry some.
failed attempt. second attempt was successful.
i ate both anyway.
its damn oily. lol.

then i rest awhile and i preped.
went to Skcc myself, and posted out some packages.
Queued for the registered mail postage, damn long.
after that walked back Compass and got lunch for me and my brother :)
wento Pets' Station to get something for my hammie.
wanted to get a wheeeeel, but somehow i thought i wont have enough
so i didnt get. instead, i bought a playtire.
hahahaha when im alone i tend to buy stupid stuffs
but at least my hammie likes it!
peektures next time (if i remember to take)

home sweet home afterward.
ate my fishball noodles and i wento clean my hammie's home
while its busying itself by climbing out of its' temp. house.
lollll then i renovated its house a little. (its still green. i cant paint)
Haha. i think its funny.
then after that i switched on my sis' lappy.
i accidentally switched on Num Lock.
nearly freaked out when i typed like this:
(just another picture to burn)
14st an6ther p5ct4re t6 b4rn
so i thought i spoilt my sis' lappy and nearly went crazy
then i saw some small numerals under the alphabet keys
then the lightbulb lighted.

so i go press the NUM lock
then YAY! i solved the problem
i think imma genius.
heeee
called Fion but she didnt pick up nor reply my call ):
alright. im going to start on my homework already!
byebyebyebyebyebye

i dont feel happy
why
i ask myself why
i dont know why
i think i know why
but i cannot do anything about it
there is always a limit to my speech
to what i say
to what i do
to how i react
how

on a side note.

2009-01-12T19:58:00.001+08:00

ok, so on a side note,
i visited the ELF's international website.
I SOSOSOSOSO WANT THEIR STUDIO LINE'S COSMETICS.
OMFGXZ!
but! i cant seem to find anyone holding a spree for their non-asia website!
the asia website has SO limited items.
ohdear.
and IM PLAYING PET SOCIETY NOW
pardon me. i very long never play alr!
then everytime i login is on a Monday
then got new items!
nvm, i buy all already.

ohya.
i've got motivated!
by the O level results this year
seriously man.
i can, i will, i must do well. ;D

where it'd start.

2009-01-12T19:19:00.002+08:00

hello! im just going to update fast and start on my homework.
its already 7.30pm!!!
so anyway, lemme update for saturday...

went to school for band.
sectional-ed a little and combined with winds.
and lunch at 12pm
went to buy lunch with kenneth, ran like siao.
haha. ate and went up :)
playing was bad that day.
and mr er was very dissappointed ))):
then end band around 5pluspm
home sweet home and i slept till midnight
woke up and i went back sleep agian
how nice.
saturday gone, just like that!

sunday.
woke up around 11pluspm?
bathed and preped.
met Kristin at compassvale around 3pluspm?
kfc for lunch :) trained to orchard
wento fareast, began shopping.
soooo many nice dresses!
too bad no money T.T
walked around and bla
spotting hotties (!)
wanted to go bugis, but due to some reaons didnt go.
going this week! ^^
then wento Mogu-Mogu.
she bought a plate of icecream and 100 plus?
hahah

the atmosphere there is weird
its like the moment you stepped in, looks like you wanna eat alr
and its quite expensive there.
for me la. haha
then the kitchen guy keep looking out.
DISGUSTED.
he looks sheepish.
-.-

then waited for Mingshun to come.
he took quite long?
saw JJ & co. outside subway.
then he came and he drove us to some coffeeshop
i had wanton meeeee and she had wanton soupppppp
damn windy there. my hair keeps flying all over the place.
sat awhile and hurried home.
but still too late.
haha. i wanted to watch the Lil Nyonya's 5min special.
reached home at 10.10pm
before that, my bro called and told me to be home before 11pm
if not my dad's not gonna give me allowance for 3days?
ohshit. he found out about my weakness: MONEY.
fuckthat please.
i was damn fucking pissed when he said that to me.

like wth?
use money threaten me.
fuck.
stupidpieceofshit.
anw, thanks Mingshun for the ride though :)
and he drives fast. hahahah

home sweet home
and i ate a lil of the dinner and threw the rest away
bathed and did a lil homework
slept at 1plusam. cos really damn tired.

Monday!
woke up at 7am
to do my jianbao. wth.
then left home around 8.18am
nearly late. -.-
then.... had ST/Diagnostic test
recess and was lessons.
around 1pluspm wento hall.
to witness the 2oo8 graduates taking their Olevel results.
our school did great this year :D
damn good please. so stressed. hahaha
envy them with 8 distinctions.
after that, headed to Compass.
lunched at kpt and bought some stamps
and home sweet home.

bathed and changed the foodbowl for my FATTY.
and started use comp
damn it.
i really need to set my priorities right!!!
MY PET(in pet society) IS DYING
cos i many days never feed it alr
and everytime i login is MONDAY!!!
new items release. and i will spend.
):
okay. im going to play with my pet alr
bye!

You glowed.

super irritated.

2009-01-10T02:39:00.004+08:00

okay, as my title says
im super irritated because! i cant upload photos to friendster
which is really sssssstupid.
whatever.
had a long day today
and im extremely tired.
woke up at like 6.30am?
bathed and preped and headed to school.
wasnt late, which was good (Y)
and had some ct time, actually needa do cny deco
but nobody in our class seems volunteered enough to do it.
LOL!

then had PE,
measured our height and weight.
I DIDNT GROW TALL.
DAMN. sad ):
but i got fatter. by 1 kg.
standing at 168cm now, proudly! HAHAAHAHA
okay, kidding to all those shortys :) peace! ^^V
pe teacher was mr nazri.
100 times better than that stupid leong hon fai? fat? idk!
then was english, as usual
laughed alot :)
then chinese. didnt do jianbao
and teacher was lecturing us for half an hour?
then did ying yong wen. -.-

recess, ate.
i realised everytime recess, for this year.
we keep having no time to eat.
last time still have time go locker.
now havent eat finish, lights off already.
wtf? -.-
then POA.
feel like sleeping man.
damn tired~~~
after school, had cupcorn x2
hahahaha
nice la. i love cupcorn :D
then wento band.

was setting up instrument
and mr sun suddenly called me.
he said,
"(my chinese name) ah, ni zai na li ah? wo dao le"
then im like SHOCKED!
"huh? jing tian you lesson meh?"
he said,
"you ah, ni bu zhi dao mah? kuai dian xia lai. wo zai er lou"
then i said,
"orh. okok. ni zai na li deng wo hor. wo xian zai xia lai"

ALL in hanyu pinyin
if your chinese is lousy, you cant read it.
hahaha
ya. so i took the keys stands files
and wento find him.
had lesson for 2 hours
and i think he got angry.
cos we keep couldnt get it.
and he showed us the irritated face.
first time see that face, was kinda ): and >:O
cos its his duty to TUTOR us. not to expect that we sure know.
get it?

head up back to band room after lesson
and played cavetown.
not bad? i'd say.
but quite frustrating to keep playing the same passages again & again.
lol.
then fall in, and dismissed around 6plus
home sweet home straight. DAMN tired.

reached home, chatted awhile with my siblings and i wento sleep.
woke up at 10.30pm!!
i slept around 7pm.
LOLZXZXZ
then watched tv and ate dinner.
used comp, now alr 3am!
THERE'S BAND TMR.
sectional during morning.
which is rather boring.....
and combine during afternoon.

going out on sunday! like finally.
:) :) :) :)
quite looking forward and excited
because im doing quite a number of things.
thursday and friday have been slacking.
i shall finish all my homework tmr
so i can go out on sunday with ease
okay! bye! going sleep already
later tmr cannot wake up i die.

i whiten-ed my teeth. HAHAHAHAHA

happy duckling

2009-01-09T00:02:00.001+08:00

yahoooooooooooooooo
i completed editing within half an hour
going to bathe now
im so frigging shag.
i hate JIANBAO.
SUCKS.
bye!
i just realised that tmr will be a SUPER LONG DAY
BECAUSE THERE IS BAND.
AH!

ah

2009-01-08T23:11:00.003+08:00

hello!
alright. now that school has reopened.
i realised that using the computer will make me tired and hence,
i wont have energy to finish my homework!
which is very pathetic.
cos i just set up my new email
then i have to approve the msn requests
if not later people will think that its a fraud email.

and somemore everyday got SO many homework
its killlling me!
so anyway.
i wasnt late for school today! yipppeee
didnt have to see that fucktard face :)
then had CT, bio, chinese, english :)
starting to like my english class. cos the people sitting infront of me are funny.
Lol. then! was recess~
then was SS, was busy chatting and crapping with alex kenneth kiathao dion and kristin.
hahaha
was basically excited over the visit to NYP.

then was MATHS.
ohyay, i did my homework :)
finish all you know!
been ages since i've finished up my maths homework
HAHAHAHA
then she taught us new things
and she didnt know we have to go early.
which is weird. lol
in the end, finished up the question
and i wento meet Kristin.
fion was sick ):
so, ate the waffle with the ice cream on top
then after that, boarded the bus to NYP!

was kinda excited.
because i can see handsome guys. LOL
BUT in the end our tour guide not handsome one!
wth~
overall, the whole trip was BORING.
seriously, BORING LA.
ahh maybe its because its poorly organised or maybe its the lack of activities?
there are also other school people.
so its like, very crampy and squeezy at some parts? when everybody went into the same school?
school as in the course core. not the school.
get it? no? nvm -.-

ya, then around 4pluspm?
bused back to Cvss :)
and home sweet home!
homed alr used comp all the way -.-
and now just watched finish yi zhi mei
and gg bathe and do homework
i have my jianbao, lit, and duno what to do!!!
AH
I HATE JIANBAO because its a waste of my time.
i think i have to cut down on my usage of computer

maybe one week use 3 times?
or 2 times.
i really wannaaa do well.
there's english ST coming soon man -.-
ohwell. thats alllll ;)

random~

Love at first sight.

2009-01-07T21:02:00.003+08:00

helloooo people!
here to post. just had my chicken wing rice.
yummmmy yum yum =D
anyway, those people in my contact list,
please add my new email okay!
iheartjane@live.com.sg
thanks~

so, was late for the 7.23am thingy.
and mr din's being so, i-dont-know-how-to-describe
i just REALLY dont like his freaking attitude.
having to hear his voice early in the morning just puts me off.
irritating!
then vp and p walked past and caught the girls' fringes.
its really irritating when the teachers keep ask you to "pin up your fringe" x1000000
but like hello? what has fringe got to do with our studies?
just make sure you do your job can already what!
whats with catching fringes -.-

then went up hall for some talk by mrs yoga.
SS for first lesson :)
and LCE next followed by English.
recess, then had duno what lesson(forget)
haha then was F&N
F&N is a hypnotising lesson. lol
its always making me sleep.
ended around 2.30pm :D:D:D:D
met kristin&fion then wento canteen to have lunch.
then home sweet home thereafter
comped all the way and napped a lil
dinnered and now watching tv =D

we're going temesek poly tmr~
quite looking forward?
:D

dead meat.

2009-01-05T05:33:00.001+08:00

oh no.
its already 5.30 am!
and im not asleep yet!!!!
i was watching an anime, "Vampire Knight"
its so nice and the characters all so handsome and pretty.
LOLOL
and yeah, its rayner's birthday today!
LOL.
and yep, i finished season 1 for Vampire Knight
still got season 2! tmr then watch!
heee
goodnight.
tmr's my "first day" of school :)
byeeeee

throw it away.

2009-01-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hellooooooo
here to post!
spent my whole day sleeping.
sleeping queen. LOL
there's school tmr.
dread it. =/
perhaps because my holiday assignments arent done yet!
whatever. a very short post
cos im gg to play pet society.
hehe =D
buaiz

(image heavy) IV

2009-01-04T20:28:00.000+08:00

(image heavy) III

2009-01-04T20:19:00.000+08:00

(image heavy) II

2009-01-04T20:01:00.005+08:00

(image heavy) I

2009-01-04T19:26:00.006+08:00

survival day 1 dinner.
R.I.P baby. ):

suspense

2009-01-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

one picture first.

LOL cos uploading the peektures took too long

update them tmr

idk why i keep dreading the thought of packing my room.

Lol.

night people!

i think im in love! LOLXZ

IM very sad. ):

2009-01-03T22:13:00.003+08:00

Hellooooooooo.
im gonna update what happened on 31st december till now.
plus! alot of peektures to upload.
dont want use piccas alr. so many ppl using this word.
made me so-not-original. (im not hinting ANYBODY)

ya! so,
31st december 2oo8! (wednesday)

lemme restart the day again.
hahaha
hmm, woke up at 2plus pm
bathed and preped, met Kristin around 5pluspm at Compass
had KFC for lunch+dinner.
and trained to Vivo.
and we're LATE! hahaha
then met them ; daiwei, jinsheng, kinweng, eve.
hmmmmm afterward, yew wei came
and we wento get some food and wento the sky park and camp there.
hahaha
sat there for like 1hr then sian already
so decided to head to Kinweng's house for MAHJONG!!
my favourite past time with them. haha!

then trained there and yew wei went home -.-
left with daiwei jinsheng kinweng eve kristin lennard and me.
headed over to his house
and we played mahjong!!
my luck wasnt bad! won quite alot.
played daidi also~
then also got win got lose la.

countdown with them in the room
and wanted to msg my friends happy new year,
but my msges couldnt get sent out!!!
damn >:O
then continued playing and blah~
time was passing slowly, and its great!
then around 5plus am, we decided to order Macs' for breakfast :)
after we finished eating.
we got bored of mahjong already.
so watched the guys play their favourite game aka my most hated game = DOTA.
lol. then around 6plus am, plopped onto Kinweng's bed with kristin and slept.
hahahahaha
but i was damn HOT. i mean, i was sweating.
not that i am hot. -.-

i slept in the inner corner at first
but not enough space la! LOL
then i slept on the other side instead.
while jinsheng and lennard slept on the lower bed
and daiwei and kinweng was playing DOTA.
tskkkkk

1 january 2oo9! (thursday)
woke up around 8plus am.
they're STILL PLAYING. but idk what game.
hahaha
damn tired~
nothing to do, so i camwhored with them
and they used kristin's eyeliner and drew on jinsheng's face.
lol, and lennard's too :D

then we crapped and chatted
and i played pet society!!! HAHAHAHA
left his house around 12plus pm
then busd to Tiong Bahru Plaza and bought tickets for YesMan.
walked around and went in for movie.
and, daiwei slept after the movie started for 10 mins
so he dint really watched.
hahahah

then after that, kristin slept a lil tooo
and something funny happened to her and i saw it!!!!
HAHAHAHAH
so jinsheng and me were the survivors!
i think YesMan is nice.
4/5 stars :)
cabbed home afterward :)
after reaching home, bathed and slept~

2 january 2oo9! (friday)
supposedly the first day of school
but in the morning when i woke up,
i feel DAMN giddy.
its like when i stand up , i couldnt even balance.
how bad is it?
lol, and my dad did something which is very irritating.
he didnt wanna gimme allowance for 3 DAYS AND NO DINNER FOR ME FOR 3 DAYS
SO FUCKED UP.
and, its also part of the reason why i didnt go school.
irritating bastard! >:O

then after that i woke up around 12plus pm
then bathed prepd and left for school
i wento BAND!
luckily i went, if not i sure kena slaughtered
hahahaha
i was late, and i actually didnt dare to go in
cos everyone was inside alr and mr er was talking.
lollll
then had band and bla
home sweet home at 6plus.
shag!
then i wento eCon and bought campbell soup and beans~

home sweet home again
and i cooked!
cos this is survival day one!
LOL
i fry-ed an ommelette and cooked soup!
and rice of course!
hahaha i can pass as a housewife alr.

then ate and watched tv
halfway through my dad came home -.-
spoilt my appetite
then after that used comp!
and watched tv
slept about 3plus am
without any blanket ):
so i was freezing like some shitass.
hahahaha

3 january 2oo9! (saturday)
woke up like damn early
but in the end i was still late for band
reporting time was 8.30 but i reached at 8.35 -.-
then blabla and went down
for CCA recruitment day.
was pretty amused by how other CCAs attempted to pull students to their CCA.
they just screamed and shouted like some market aunties.
no offence though. cos it was pretty fun.
but i think if im the sec 1, i will be freaked out and wont wanna join that CCA.
HAHAHAHAH
then the thing ended at 11am
went up band room and split for sectionals.
played Cavetown, i swear im sick of that song man
LOLOL
then lunchtime~
thanks kenneth and natalie for buying :)
and went up for combine.

i was damn tired and kept dozing off
but i didnt cos there was a disturbing character beside me.
HAHAHAHAHAHA
oh im so mean ):
hahah
then yea, today the band sounds great!
and mr er was happy. esp the brasses
im also happy. for myself for my section and for the band.
somehow i think hes in good mood today
cos he taught me how to count two beats (stu-pid)
-.- embarrassing man. lol.
then yeah, good job~
hahahaa
then band ended around 5pluspm
im damn tired!

walked home with Jasmine
and home sweet home :)
checked out my hammies
and discovered that MY BABY HAMSTER DIED!!!!!
AHHH IM DAMN FREAKING SAD CAN!?
it only lived with me for 10 days!!!
since xmas, till today.
T.T
then i took a last picture of it.
very sad la! ahh ):
then i put it inside a plastic bag and tied it up.
i didnt bury it.
because i think that burying something is scary
imagine you bury it under the soil
then one day, it rained for several days continuously
and the soil flows away and there, the thing you buried suddenly at there
then if its a pet/an animal, its pretty scary
cos by that time already decomposed.
maybe i think too much la.

but yeah, i rather it be disposed properly.
then i preped and such.
my hair was like, in a HUGE MESS
i look so shag! wanted to bathe
but lazy la. LOL
in the end, while waiting for kristin's reply
i couldnt take it. so i took the lure for my bed
HAHAHA cos i just washed my blanket and it smelt so GREAT.
and so tempting for me to sleep!
HAHA then i fell asleep.

got bombarded by calls but i wasnt awake
cos phone not with me
in the end, kristin called my house and my bro woke me up
LOL i freaked out can? then just woke up and make my hair
rinse my mouth and got out of the house.
i feel so, weird.
hahaha
then met her at compass
and wento Macs' for dinner.
i totally regret, total was like $6.35
for filet-o-fish EVM with twister fries
i'd rather go KFC and eat zinger burger with cheese fries
i can upsize my drinks somemore.
LOL, I KNOW I SPEAK LIKE AN AUNTIE
but sorry. money is very important to me.

then somemore my coke no ICE CUBES ONE LEH
wtf. i dont like coke w/o ice cubes
it makes me shit. and i really wento shit.
HAHAHAHA
obscene. then after that bought some stuffs and home sweet home :)
now using comp!!
tmr's sunday, which is a REST DAY!
and im gonna do my homework.
:) :) :) :)

im gonna upload peektures to facebook and photobucket alr.
happy reading my post!

Long time no update!

2009-01-03T00:53:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everybody!
i know its a belated one.
but i havent got time to use the computer though.
anw, theres tons to update.
cos i've been MIA for like 7 days? i just realised.
so anyway!

27th december 2oo8 (saturday)
woke up at like 12pluspm
and prep and bathed and went school.
luckily i wasnt late. LOL.
then blabla, bused to Singapore Conference Hall.
and rehearsal and bla~
concert started at 7.30pm
nice concert :)
and we played die fledermaus and under the flag of glory.
not very good though
after our turn is clarinet choir and percussion ensemble
and is their drama.
its nice! the costumes and all~
bused back to school and home sweet home!
damn tired that day ):

28th december 2oo8 (sunday)
hmm, wento service with Kristin.
was late, reached there at 10.10am
LOL. then had service till like 11.30am?
afterward wento plaza sing to have lunch
spent some time in the arcade
and played some games.
met Lennard and we left for Bugis.
in the end, Kristin shopped at Bugis Junction
so many sales. LOL
bused to Chinatown, and Kristin wasnt feeling well.
so she cabbed home first.

left with me jinsheng eve lennard and mingzhu
then we wento Lennard's friend's shop.
he's working there.
and mingzhu wanted to get some formal clothings.
was really bored there.
settled our dinner at some "western food stall"
lol, damn ex, and the spaghetti is damn PEPPER-Y.
i mean it. its like, so hot! >:O
yeah. so its not nice and its very expensive.
and its at CHINATOWN. can you believe it?!
wtfxz

then after that Jinsheng and Eve sent me the mrt station
thanks guys :)
and damn tired after reaching home.

29th december 2oo8 (monday)
i forget what happened alr!
LOL I THINK I STAYED AT HOME.

30th december 2oo8 (tuesday)
i also forget alr!!! LOLOLOL

31st december 2oo8 (wednesday)
hmm, woke up quite early around 12pluspm?
preped and bathed.
then met Eric downstairs my house and got the books from him.
thanks! :D
then went up again and took my bag and went down.
met Kristin at compass :)
and i lunched at KFC and we trained to Vivo to meet the clique
oh, and we're late! LOL
okay, its a long story
i shall pause here. cos my sissy wanna use her lappy to do homework!
OKKKKKBYEEEE!

Leave me a note,

2008-12-26T23:44:00.002+08:00

hello!!!

-.- i spent my day at home today.
not really but yep, mostly.
HAHAHAH
woke up at 12pm plus today
and bathed and prep
wento school and bought books :)
and went home.
went compass with sis and bro
and came back home put things
and bused to Yishun to meet Eve.
met her and got my hammies and bused home.
LOL

(i was typing halfway and MY HOUSE BLACK OUT AGAIN!)

okay.. so i went home and i started to pack my study table
then had lunch cooked by sis, and after that packed again
everyone went out. LOL
except me ): i continued packing and ended at 8.30pm!
and around that time, BLACK OUT AGAIN
WTH. then i went out and on back the thingy.
then i play with my hammies.

tv-ed at about 9pm
and used the comp as well
i can MULTI TASK!!
like around 9.10pm like that, BLACK OUT AGAIN.
wth~ keep black out.
ate my dinner, no appetite
then bro came back.
till about 10pm offed tv

was playing pet society~~~~
and sis came back
my nose bled just now.
this week keep bleed ):
and while i was controlling the blood.
MY HOUSE BLACK OUT AGAIN.
wtf. lol.
then on back, and now i cant sign in msn ):
ah! have to report at 1pm tmr!!

i havent wash my band uniform yet.
great~
okay, im gg bathe now and wash my band uniform!
bye~
wish me luck for tmr
im nervous!

selfish.

2008-12-26T03:26:00.003+08:00

people are born to be selfish,
who doesn't want the best for themselves?
but some people chose not to be selfish.
because they know that if they are selfish
they will not gain respect, but hatred.
some people are selfish secretly,
so that people will not know that they are selfish
but you know,
truth has its way of finding.
i don't have to do anything its all listed.
whatever it is.
i despise this kind of people.

don't have to feel guilty
unless you think im referring to you.
i do not have to write any names
im not liable to.
so don't come telling me to write down names
if you think its you, then its you
if its not you then its not you.
common sense? yes.
cos im very pissed off now.
:)

and that stupid bastard
didnt gimme allowance for tmr.
and his fish died i shall CELEBRATE
fuck. i hate him.
can i just do something to erase my hatred?
that only thing is: death.
why not? =D

i wanna wish you a merry christmas!

2008-12-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

hello!
i've got tons to share about.
so be patient for this post! =D
i've had the BEST XMAS EVE of my 15years' of life
Im not kidding! im serious.

so lemme start blogging about it!
hmm, woke up around 10plus pm
then preped, left house at only like 1pluspm?
i know im slow~
then i did something very stupid.
to me la.
i lrted to Compass, then i wento the BUS INTERCHANGE.
and waited for 965.
lol, then it came.
it passed by my house downstairs' bus stop.
you tell me. i stupid anot?
LOL.
and the worst thing is I FORGET BRING OUT MY CAMERA
WTFFFFUCK. T.T

then 965 to yishun
im like damn lost. cos its my first time going there taking 965
hahaha
then met Eve and we walked to the petshop to get some hammie supplies
after that, walked back to her house
took quite some time to determine the sex-es
then settled them in their cage
and we went to Northpoint.
developed some photos and we were finding for some gift shops
there were NONE? i think.
damnit. then we trained to Outram.
met Daiwei Jinsheng Yew wei and Kinweng.
then we trained all the way to Expo.

reached there alr, went in and sit down.
got to know quite a number of new friends.
lemme see if i remembered all
there were,
christopher, sherman, jonathan, yao jue, peng, zheng something one.
still have some more but i forgotten their names =p
chatted and self intro-ed. haha
then kinweng and daiwei wento fetch kristin in.
and they were stucked outside.
hahaha
it was overflooded with people.

then she came in and we chatted~
sitting arrangement was,
daiwei kristin me kinweng jinsheng and yew wei ;)
then the drama started.
i think its nice and funny. 8/10 stars?
ahaha =D
then got candlelight, i like that part man!
its so beautiful~
then after that the service ended around 9pluspm?
then we left that place and trained to Orchard~

damn full of people -.-
and we saw a pair of indian gay couple.
LOL. then after that walked to Cineleisure.
settled at subway and me kristin and eve wento get prezzies for gift exchange.
suppered at Subway and exchanged gifts!
and i got the Mr Bean cup from Jinsheng!
hahaha
he kept laughing at his gift.
and im glad that all of them liked my card! =D

then we left Subway and went to Arcade
was kinda bored there though.
didnt play much. after that we went out of Cine
and was discussing where to go
and somebody just slapped me on my arm
Lol, i thought who sia
it was SOO YONG CAI! with his girlfriend and friends -.-
and afterward we wento 7-11 and Lennard treated me to a can of Jolly Shandy
haha. thanks! (:
saw yongcai there also.
and after that, kinweng and lennard and eve cabbed home :)
left with me kristin daiwei and jinsheng.

decided to go to Kristin's house.
cabbed there. slept along the way.
cos i cant stand cabs. hahaha.
reached her house.
Lucky was all over Daiwei.
attracted to his jeans i guess.
then daiwei fixed kristin's comp.
while me kristin and jinsheng played daidi
hahaha :)

after slacking at her house for some time
we walked to Varinice to have breakfast.
saw James and co. on the way.
then ate and they were counting the duration of me finishing my coke.
but i finished it anw! haha!
then trained home.
home sweet home! :)

wanted to go bathe.
then i go switch on my room's light.
then cannot on! then i told my brother
"eh, the light spoil sia. how ah. i wanna go bathe one leh!!"
then i keep on off on off cannot!
then i went outside and i realised that the fish tank the thingy also not moving
THE HOUSE WAS SO QUIET!
then i realised, that my house blacked out -.-

lol, i went back to switch on the thingy
and i wento bathe.
WHILE BATHING HALFWAY
MY HOUSE BLACK OUT AGAIN
WTH! i was only washing my hair at that time!
i totally freakout can?
cos the water is freaking cold~
and my dad wento switch back on.
woah.
then after that, sent out a few msges
and i wento sleep!

during my sleep,
my house black out alot of times.
LOL
then before i woke up
my house black out
too long i guess.
then the fish in the fishtank DIED
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
then my father came home
and his reaction was like
"BOY! WO DE YU SI LIAO! WALAO!"
HAHAHAHAHA

then the fish was cleared out.
it was a silver koi.
but it lived long enough though.
hahahaha
then hmm
yeah. watched lil nyonya and dinnered and comped

i really love my clique! xoxo.
pics later!!
xo

MERRY XMAS!
I LOVE THIS YEAR'S XMAS EVE.
HAHAHAHA

2008-12-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

nothing's going well and right for me
today just sucks.
everything to me just sucks today
even the tv shows.
damn the yueniang for not running away
damn that yuzhu for not retaliating(sp)

and just as i was gg to sleep happily
smth shitty happened
and i was so fucked up that i scolded everyone in the house
i mean, i talked to them in a very loud voice
and like venting my anger?
i didnt mean it.
because i really went berserk just now
AH

whatever
im SO looking forward to tmr
AND that bastard gave me allowance
$6 for christmas.
THANKS.
its SO MUCH.
and im gna ton again on xmas eve and drive him to his grave
and hes gonna repeat everything
and not gonna gimme allowance again
well, fuck that.

IM so easily irritated nowadays
SO SORRY FOR ALL THE VULGARS
no one seem to understand me
i cant voice out at all
when i tell you things
you better bloody hell listen
and not just FU YAN ME
fuck i bloody feel like slapping ppl alr
sorry i aint any chao ah lian or wdv shitx
but THIS IS ME
I AM EXACTLY WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO BE NOW.
i forget the lyrics la. whatever

IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR
HOPE MY SIS AND BRO GET WELL SOON
THEY'RE REALLY SICK ):
happy early xmas eve!!
HAHAHAH
all i want for xmas is you~
HAHA NO ONE LA
OKAY. SEE IM NUTS
IM GG SLEEP ALR
MEETING EVE EARLY.
HOHo
HOPE I WONT BE LATE *PRAY*
KK bye!!

...

2008-12-23T19:04:00.002+08:00

AHH. IM DYING OF CRAMPS ):
HELP! T.T
anw, was searching for hammie videos just now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIlin6nSUd0

its SO CUTE
OMG!
i cant wait for tmr so suddenly
gonna pop pills already
cramps can kill
seriously.
fffffff

2008-12-23T04:44:00.001+08:00

ok, its like 4.43am alr
im not asleep yet!
posting a vid here.

but it cant load.
anw, the link is,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZBz5fdikZc

watch it! its FUNNY.
and i was cheered up by that video
i think maybe you guys have seen it before
but it doesnt hurt to watch again!!!
HAHAHAH

FUCK.

2008-12-23T01:58:00.002+08:00

Okay. im bloody pissed off.
i hate my father more than you love your mama.
damn it.

that bastard didnt gimme allowance for tomorrow.
i was like wtfuck?
like hello? i've got band tmr.
so lunch i no need eat la?
swallow air can already?
for goodness sake. how old already?
he doesnt know how to think?

its okay if you dont gimme allowance on days that im not going out
but its not okay if you dont gimme allowance on days that i AM having something on!
besides.
im currently like, SO IN NEED OF FUCKING CASH?
AND YOU FUCKIN DONT GIVE ME MONEY?
SUCK THAT
fuck. im oh-so-pissed.
and so fucked up.

whats up next?
- preorder items
- hamster stuffs
- HANDPHONE BILL
and so much more.
luckily i've already got gifts for my loved ones
just that now i lacked of two presents for the gift exchange.
like maybe i shouldnt have ton overnight the other time?
then i wouldnt have gotten into so MUCH financial problems.
well, whats done has been done.
no use ranting. whatever it is.

he suck.
when he die. im not gonna cry.
same for my mother.
when she die. im not gonna cry.
mark that.

why am i so heartless?
sorry, i inherited that from my parents
its in my genes.
my mother left me when i was pri 2.
my father starts controlling me like shitfuck ever since then.
you know what? he only cares about my academic results
he doesnt even love me
he doesnt even give me money to shop.
never mind! he doesnt even give me money to buy NEW clothes for special occasions.
fuck? yes. very.
then, when im sick, I CANNOT SEE DOCTOR.
because why? at home got medicine. eat panadol can already.
its A WASTE OF MONEY to visit a doctor.
then if you owe him money, he'll keep hanging it near his mouth.
which means, he'll keep saying it.

i hate him.
i wont acknowledge him as my father anymore.
maybe its inherited
my eldest sis also stopped talking to him since shes 15/16 like that.
ohwell, he suck.
my mom suck.
i dont have parents. i grow up alone.
yes. bye.

and i dont feel like going band tmr
i dont feel good.
i dont feel happy.
i feel miserable.
i feel sad.
i feel..
speechless.
i feel moody
i feel like ranting
i feel like complaining to someone
i feel like pouring out my sadness.
i feel like talking on the phone
i feel like bitching
i feel like gossiping
i feel like shopping.
i hope the time can stop.

i wish that i have money
i wish that i werent born in this miserable family
i wish that i am happy.
i wish that i have a boyfriend.
i wish that i have someone whom i can really rely on.

i despise my dad
i despise my mom
i despise people who copy
i despise people who wanna become somebody that they're not
i despise people who gossip about me
i despise hypocrites
i despise ppl who are friends with me yet backstab me
i despise.. despise..
anything and everything which irritates me to the core.

fuckthat.
im so pissed off.
im gg to empty the bin and bathe and sleep
im so tired.

I want you to be my lovetoy.

2008-12-22T22:32:00.002+08:00

okay, im currently listening to sgc's radio
and that DJ is singing. ohmygod.
my goosebumps are all standing! -.-
and his microphone got the overblown sound, like he blows directly into the mic.
and its very noisy. -.-

alright
so i've been using lappy the whole day
and faithfully PET SOCIETY-ing
i think im gonna finish up my Bu Liang Xiao Hua.
and im kinda excited for christmas!
im gonna ton overnight on xmas eve with clique!
kinda looking forward to tmr tooooo
hehe.

kkk, bye.
im falling in love all over again.
somehow or rather
im in love with christmas.
lollllll

I feel like....

2008-12-22T15:03:00.002+08:00

Hellloo!
havent blogged for days?
haha, for me la. :)
i've got so much to blog about. so much to say.
so much to pour out too.
be prepared for a long post!!

anyhow.
so, i went out around 11.15pm on Saturday.
met Kristin, and i swear, i wear like S-H-I-T. totally please. ):
then we trained to Outram.
changed line, and trained to Queenstown.
We took the last train for everything.
haha!
then reached queenstown. waited for jinsheng.
he came to fetch us. hahaha
then we walk walk walk to the RC.
and went in.
first impression: did we came into the wrong place? it looks like a warehouse though
haha. :)
there were, daiwei kinweng lennard inside.
then we played MAHJONG!!!!!
okay. was kinda boring in the first place
but followed by laughters.
and followed by coldness.
the aircon's damn COOLing.
i was gonna freeeeze!

haha. till around 4plus am, Lennard left.
left with jinsheng, daiwei, kinweng, me and kristin.
played played played. till 7plus am
and we went to Macs' for breakfast!
walk walk around and went back again.
for MORE mahjong.
LOL!
Jinsheng left around 12pluspm, sleepily.
hahaha he was rushing.

then we continued to play
till around 2pluspm!
then we went to have our LUNCH.
had wanton meeee, not bad la.
just that the fan keep blowing and my hair keeps getting into my mouth -.-
hahaha
then left the place.
and they walked us to Queenstown Mrt and we trained home!
people gave us looks when we entered the train
and i was wondering do we look like we're going out? or going home?
haha! and there are SO many Bangalas. -.-
changed line again.
yay. got to sit down.
slept from Outram all the way to Buangkok
and i woke up, my neck hurts.
lol. and i slept on Kristin's shoulders awhile, till Sengkang
really awhile ma!
HAHAH
then wanted to go Cold Storage check out some stuffs.
but didnt go in the end. cos i was really very tired out
home sweet home like finally!

first thing that spoilt my sight of lovely home = my eldest sis
seeing her on a Sunday spells trouble.
then i removed my makeup
and she came into my room and asked me to go hang the laundry
i was feeling so tired. wantd to ask my brother to do it
but he was sleeping so soundly. didnt bear to wake him up.
so i wento hang the laundry myself!
hahahaha
then, i wento bath and after bathing
i felt so REFRESHED!!!
then i didnt wanna sleep yet, so did some stuffs
and i fell asleep...
that was around 6plus pm

woke up around 2plus am
replied smses, and wanted to wake up
but tired, so slept
woke up at 10.15am
wanted to go to NTUC with Kristin
but cancelled it around, 11am
i feel so sick, my head feels heavy!
so im PET SOCIETY-ING NOW!
hahaha
i just leveled. and i think i need to drink lots of water
cos im having ulcers in my mouth. ):

and im kinda interested in rearing hamsters!!!!!
hahah! ive been looking up info about them!
heeehee

and ohya
i've got a mean dad
he hasnt given me allowance for 2 days?
why? because i ton outside overnight.
when my bro msged me say, my dad dint give me allowance
i was neutral. VERY neutral somemore
then my bro also said my dad not gna buy me dinner
im like -.- whatever.
then nevermind, i woke up today
and my brother say he never give me allowance again
wtf? i was SLEEPING. i was at home.
and he didnt gimme money.
shit ass.

whatever it is
i think my father is a bastard
he suck!
fuck.

2008-12-20T19:51:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOD
I THINK IM VERY SMART
MUAHAHAHAHAHA
you know why?

because today mr er told us that someone scolded him on his/her BLOG
i nearly freaked out. haha!
then i was SHOCKED la. who on earth got such guts to insult my dear instructor?
she's none other than........ *DRUMROLLS*

small JANE! there's another Jane in the band
she's much more shorter and petite than me
and she has short hair too.
so she's QUITE different from me
but WHO knows! i think she swallowed someone's guts
and she managed to write out that paragraph!
*ah, her blog cannot copy.*
http://www.cuttie-gurl.blogspot.com/
go see her blog, the latest entry in RED.
hai.. maybe she's young and doesnt understand the band
but she still shouldnt like this right?
ah. nvm. i think shes gonna get shit from mr er when shes back.
oh well. :)

so yeah. mr er was so pissed off by our attendance problem
that he doesnt wanna teach during the afternoon
left around 2pluspm, home sweet home :)
comped and fell asleep till like 6.30?
i didnt on my fan, for goodness sake.
LOL
then now waiting for dinner to come back
and i can go prep and meet kristin.
going to mahjong later! overnight.
i wish nothing happen.

Catch me if you can.

2008-12-19T22:36:00.002+08:00

Heyho.
so i didnt go band today
hence, i missed the performance
why i didnt go leh? cos i was sick.
tsk, i know no one will believe me
but i was really sick.
cos i stayed up till like 6am plus
then i wento bed to rest awhile
woke up like 7.30am
then my head felt heavy and giddy
and i was sniffing like mad. (not say im a dog la)

then i msged alexia and nat
and told them i wasnt going cos im sick.
so i went back to sleep
woke up at like 4plusplus
then washed up and used comp :)
i left with 3 ep now
and i alr loaded ep 12 and 13 then!
the IE suddenly RESTARTED
WTF. then i have to reload again ):

and! actually kristin asked me out for mahjong
then! theres band tmr
TSKK nvm im going after band tmr
YAYYYYY
I LOVE MAHJONG.
hee hee
although i dont always win. but its just an addiction ya know!
and, i love little nyonya
libby's gonna save yueniang!
yahooooooooooooo
okay, im off! to ad for my blogshop.
bye! ( i nearly typed byes! omg!)

2008-12-19T04:45:00.003+08:00

Ok, hi people
im back, i didnt sleep
and i dont plan to sleep
cuz if i sleep! then i sure late tmr.
haha cos now already SO late.

nvm, i shall update on the previous days..

hmm, tuesday-
i think im lazy to explain
but i've taken videos of the performances
might be posting them up :)
and yeah, the BBQ was enjoyable
i love section 2!

wednesday,
went out with Fion
met her quite late
walked like rounds in Fareast?
was feeling miserable
because she doesnt wanna buy anything
and im SUPER BROKE
if not, i sure shop like mad and very happy
but i no money, cant shop ):

feel so irritated at that point of time
cos if you go fareast just to WALK
might as well come compass WALK right?
also same.
im not shooting anyone yeah
just my personal opinion and point of view.
kay, and im so irritated by pet society
cos its lagging for some reasons.. (random)

ya so in the end i forced (lol) Fion to buy something
and, she bought a vintage shirt :)
then after that she wento meet her mother
and i trained back sengkang alone.
and on the way back, on the NEL line,
i was so PISSED off by this middle-aged or whatever age woman
she's SIMPLY idiotic and
she's AN AUTHENTIC TYPICAL SINGAPOREAN.
sorry to say, imma singaporean, but im not a TYPICAL one!

the thing goes like this..
i was standing infront of an occupied seat
the stupid woman was beside me, reading
i thought she looked like someone highly educated
cos she's got a short hair and with spects..
then the woman sitting on the occupied seat got up and left
like 3 minutes after she left, the stupid woman just pushed me
and GAN CHIONG-ING-LY rushed to the seat.
somemore that seat is.. lemme think.
i forget what its called. but its for the elderly and pregnant ladies one la.

ya la, she just rushed and sat down
and pretend nothing happened
im like, HELLO? RUSHING FOR WHAT SIA.
IM NOT GONNA SNATCH WITH YOU THE SEAT PLEASE.
irritating bitch.
then nevermind, throughout that journey,
infront of me that row of seats are like constantly snatched by those
kiasu woman? somemore i think their age are similar
like those 23-28 that kind.
sorry la, say them middle aged cos they look old.
oops. too bad.
HAHAHAHAHA

whatever. home sweet home and tved
and used comp till like this morning 9plusam
watching BLXH!!!
i said, "bro, i go lie awhile"
then i slept.
HAHAHAH woke up only at 5.15pm!!!
then i continued watching
and i blurly missed out ep 7!
i only found out about it after i've finished ep 8
im like. ROFLMAO.
thn i watched ep 7
now at 10 already!!!!

okay, then there's BAND tmr
morning is the performance
then afternoon is band prac
then sat, GOT BAND AGAIN
siao liao, next week, i think im gonna be busy!
sunday - pack room
monday - maybe gg out
tuesday - band
wed- out
thurs- xmas!!
sat - ZSB CONCERT!

ah, im off to race!
bye!

Plagued by the miss you left me,

2008-12-19T03:04:00.002+08:00

AHHH
GOODNESS GRACIOUS!
ITS LIKE 3AM ALREADY AHHH
OMFG
OMFG
OMFG

YOU KNOW WHY IM SO PANICKY??
BECAUSE TOMORROW HAVE TO REPORT AT 8AM SHARP
SHITASS AND SOMEMORE TMR IS FULL DAY
WTH
I THINK IM GONNA DOZE OFF

I CHIONGED BLXH TILL EP 10 !!!!
SO HAPPY CANXZ?
BUT THE SAD THING IS THAT THERE'S BAND TMR
SOME SEC 1 REGISTRATION DAY THINGY
-.- AHHH WHY CANT THEY HAVE A HALF DAY
DARN IT
SATURDAY STILL HAVE BAND
OHH SHUCKS

I HATE BAND SUDDENLY
LOLXZ

OKAY IM GOING OFF LIAO!
BYE!

(sorry for typing in CAPS cos im in a rush to go off and i NEED TO PEE
ITS COMING OUT. LOL. BYE!)

My mouth acts faster than my brain.

2008-12-17T03:27:00.003+08:00

Hello all!
im so happy today.
really, very happy like ahhhhhhhhhh~
hahaha.

i wont blog the details today
cos this black lapppy is freakin' laggy~ ):
so yeah
had band today and had BBQ session
it was also mr tan's farewell today.

i like all the performances
except for one maybe? like no xiao dian (laughing point) or enjoyment point or wdv it is la
hahaha
then, the BBQ was great.
was bbq-ing most of the time
and i get very excited when the fire started
haha! im alr excited before that.

then after BBQ and bla
went home. escape from mr er.
he's evil (kidding) k! he force people to eat chicken wings -.-
so i didnt eat, was full to the max and i feel like shitting. =/
then home sweet home
before that, opened letter box.
and sadly, my phone bill came.

EXPLODED as usual
damn. i go use the GPRS or internet on the phone.
and like for 2233 bytes, i paid $11 for it!!!
DAMN ANGRY >:0
but nvm, i was kinda excited to see if my registered mail has reached
then i stepped into the house
and i walk walk walk
there it is!!!

my registered mail package!!!
DAMN HAPPY PLS.
heheehheeh
i was on the phone with fion at that time.
then, i opened the package slowly~
and i was SHOCKED.

wanna know why?
tell you guys tmr.
HAHAHAHA
so sorry, i like to keep people in suspense.
hohohohoho
buaiz!

Twilight.

2008-12-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

Helllooooooo :)
out with Haru today.
and i was L-A-T-E.
damnit!!!
i was early actually!! but i wento check my email
and then i surf a little net! in the end i was late
left house at 1.25pm! when im supposed to meet Haru 1.25pm at Somerset.
ahhh
so i trained down somerset and we're late for 5minutes for the show!
missed the beginning. ):
but only 5mins la
hahahaha

sat like, front 3 rows?
my eyes like so dry~
i dont like it when they zoomed in on their faces
like you can see their facial hairs and freckles....
& i think that Carlisle is more handsome than Edward.
when Edward's very pale/white, he looks ugly.
to me la. accept some personal opinions can anot!
-.-
yeah. movie ended at 4pm :)
rate, 4.5/5 stars?
0.5 for the subtitles maybe
sometimes the way they speak makes me miss the ballz.
their accent maybe.
or maybe im too dumb.
aw.
hahahaha
whatever.
then we wento Kobayashi to have our late lunch?
cos we were rushing into the cinema just now
and didnt buy anything to munch.
so was kinda hungry.
and something stupid/ridiculous/idiotic happened.

there's this clique, consisted of 4 people
but 3 walked in first..
then. 1st was a gayish guy ; wearing a SUPER ULTRA tight polo for idk what!
and a grey skinnies.
2nd one was a girl wearing a black cardigan and something black inside and some leggings or whatever.
3rd one was a girl with golden hair trying to act like some jap dollz
wearing a floral dress and holding a DSLR
3 of them strolled in....
then the 2nd girl, looked at our table with sideways eyes >.>
like somebody*hint*
HAHAHAH
okay-.-
idk what she's staring/looking at.
Haru says its his DSLR
I say its me. (i dint really say la)
then i go buy my food.
was queueing and waiting for my food
then she came.
wa! machiam scanner like that.
look at me from HEAD to TOE
wtfuck, i cant stand this kind of people lor
see what see? never see before girl meh
somemore she's a girl.
so i thought she must be looking at what im wearing.
you know, people like to copy.
esp XMMs like her.
tsktsktsk.

then nvm.
i took my tray and walked past her
keep look lor!
walao. then im like maintaining my "do i look like i care" face.
hawhaw.
then i went back to my table and i realised i forget take straw -.-
went back to take straws, guess what?
she LOOK AGAIN.
im like ._. (speechlessssss)
then Haru came back with his food
then i complained to him.
turns out that it was his friendster's friend.
but he doesnt knows the girl in real life (i think?)
ya. then the girl suddenly go outside Kobayashi to talk on the phone.
LIHAI LOR *CLAPS HANDS*
she stand outside chit chat also can look through the window and look at me
im like -.- smart leh. die die also want look at me izzzzzit?
then i look back la.
then she look away -.-

*10-15mins passed*

her clique got up to leave
then, she's the last one to leave i think?
she suddenly wave and smiled so enthusiasticly(SP) at HARU
and MR HARU WAVED AND SMILED BACK
i was like, WTF?
then i told him im so turned off
im really turned off you know?
its like, onlookers see alr will be like "eh? they know each other ar. like very good friends hor?"
not that im jealous or whatever
but its like, i dont like to be associated with XMM aka xiao mei mei or xiao ah lian
or whatever you like to call them.
then i told him,
"omg! you totally turned me off"
something like that
i even went to draw a line between us
maybe you think that im exaggerating
but i really said those stuffs to him
cos its like, happened too suddenly already

IMAGINE
A and B is gossiping about C
then suddenly C waved to B and B waved back,
both smiling.
you must be like.
??!?!!?!?!?!?!?

HELLO? very good friends hor?
LOLOLOLOL
conclusion: im totally turned off and disgusted
although he said that he's just disturbing her.
-______________- ( credits to kristin)

OKAY!
then after that we took the train
and i trained to dhobyghaut and alighted
while he went somewhere else and meet his friend
that was around 5pluspm i think?
so i decided to go Chinatown to buy something.
trained to Chinatown.
i went to People's Park Center? or Complex or whatever la
I WAS LOST. L-O-S-T.
1) i was twirling in circles
2) i couldnt find the shop i want.
3) i nearly couldnt find the mrt.
phew~

then went somewhere and bought it ^^
then i trained back to Sengkang
so funny. OLs holding a PSP and gucci bag
and the minute got seats, then CHIONG and sit down?
i thought OLs everyday 8 hours also sitting on chair
buey sian meh??
then nvm, i throughout whole journey standing.
power man. legs breaking ah

then i wento Compass.
actually wanna buy back the koko krunch for my sister
but i not enough $
so i bought a small version of Honey stars.
-.- 90cents
THEN. i wento Mr Bean and bought drinks.
ahh and on the way to Mr Bean
i saw someone OH-SO-CUTE.
so cute that i wanna pinch his cheeks
he wore a baby pink/pink polo (it isnt/doesnt looks tight)
and a white berms.
OHHHH so cute can? omgggg
he's with his younger bro and mother.
hahaha i think he's bickering with his mom, in a funny way
i see him i was like smiling lor.
LOLOLOL

then lrtd home :)
bathed and dinnered
and enjoyed 2 hours of Lil Nyonya!!!
awww ~ "fang xin, wo bu hui you shi de, wo hai yao qu ni"
then 10pm, i sian alr
LOL then now using comp
i think im gonna play pet society later
my comp very lag.

ah! and there's band tmr
kinda not-looking-forward leh
why ah?
there's the farewell tmr...
hmmm hope it will be fun.
:) yeah. thats all
:D:D:D
not much picca today
but i will upload tomorrow
maybe.

ohshoots

2008-12-15T04:47:00.002+08:00

ohno! its like going 5am
i havent sleep yet...
gahh im meeting haru at 1pm tmr
PLEASE, I HOPE I WONT BE LATE
so anw, i was playing pet society just now
muahahaha
now my brother also playing but hes a nuisance(?)
cos he keep asks us questions.. . . . .. ...
anw, my sis told me about the StevenLim video
which is VERY ewww-ish.
if you wanna watch, go his website
there have the video, scroll down. :)
cannot find then come ask me kay!

ya, then i was downloading songs just now ;)
and! i ordered my LF wallet already!!!!
HAPPPPPPPPY
when i received it already
i think i will be a very very happy girl!!!
because i have been wanting that since july?
or august. i've been preaching it to my girls
hahahahaha

hmm i was on the comp the whole day
and im so tired
gosh
im so gonna be home by 8pm tmr!!
cos there's little nyonya!!1
YAYYYYYY 2 HOURS SPECIAL
then umm
theres a farewell party on tuesday
looking forward, ONLY to the BBQ
yayyy
okay. yep im going sleep
if not tmr i cant wake up
intense! cos ltr full house i TT liao
haha
okok
bye!

i think im getting fatter.

2008-12-14T20:21:00.002+08:00

Heyo!
have been home these 2 days
and its bor-ing me outttttt
cos there's no little nyonya and no food for me to eat!!!
and i was so fed up by myself just now
because i wanted to eat a bowl of koko krunch 'cus i was hungry
then! i wanted to hold the bowl by the rim, and my hand dug into the bowl
and the cereal spill! like wth right? luckily no milk inside yet
if not i think i'll be cursing and swearing like !@#$%^&*
then im like )))))): cos im like so hungry then spill
luckily not all, still have some left :)
then i pour out somemore cereals
hehe

then ate already
ive been eating and eating the whole day long man
woke up at 5pm, bathed and tried to switch on my desktop
keep off and on, off and on. but cannot on!
pfffft~ then i now using sissy's lappy :D:D:D
on facebook the whole day today
was checking gv's cinema's movie timing
ohboo there's no student price for twilight tmr
so i went to cathay's web to check
have leh! haha
but is at cineleisure ._.

going with haru to watch twilight tmr
kinda looking forward ;)
someone sent me an anonymous mince pie just now.
then just now,
JOEY YUEN sent me another mince pie -.-
im shocked that she has facebook,
and even plays PET SOCIETY
WOWWWW
*jaw drops*
i think i must throw away the mince pie
ltr infected with fungus~
okay, im so mean.
lolll
bye!
dinner's back
but im not hungry
mehehehe

ok
buaiz

Playboys ought to be shot dead. immediately man.

2008-12-13T18:25:00.002+08:00

ohpoop. i didnt go band today.
was feeling so cold and sick this morning when i woke up at 8.40am
nearly freak out cos i thought i was going to be late
but in the end, decided not to go band
was freezing in my blanket -.-

slept, woke up at 3pluspm
then secondsis say wanna cook lunch
so i cooked rice :)
the rest she cook.
ommelette w/sausages, sausages, cheese tofu.
obviously it wasnt enough to feed 4 mouths
so eldestsis cooked campbell and beanz
bro woke up , brushed teeth and food is ready.
wow. so lucky.
haha
i like the ommelette the best
so yummylicious~ :p

finish eating, was full.
washed platesssss
then used comp.

im feeling desperate
for my loungefly wallet
im feeling sad too
because everytime i listen to music at home
my brain gets clogged up and i feels frustrated
i need chocolates
and a daily talkative person to entertain me
gonna go pet society again!
weet.
byeeeee

im feeling so annoyed.

2008-12-13T04:25:00.003+08:00

OHNO

its already 4.25am, and i havent bathed yet!
theres band later on. wonder how am i gonna survive? ._.
tired, good. then i can sleep during the evening and i wont see my frigging dad
ohwell, hes an idiot! most idiotic person on earth is him!!!
-.-
was playing Pet society just now, on facebook
am so lovin' it.
hearing the kachings dropping on the floor makes me happy
hawhaw :D
passed by something just now
i think, some people are just so ironical..
maybe our destiny is over.
now its your turn to be with others
maybe i should and shall wash my hands off you
from now and today onwards
it hurts me to see
how much
LOVE you give to others
and not a single shiat you give to me
am i feeling insecure?
yes i am
and it sucks
sometimes i wonder
when im down and out
can i really call you and pour out everything?
i doubt can
because you will give me that sorry-im-busy tone of yours
and i dislike that
i didnt say cos its alr good enough that you bothered to pick up
ah
this is so over

bye
i think im going to bathe now
and sleep
sian. why must there be band on a saturday?
why not friday
can someone answer me?
.________________.

blogger sometime sucks
that i have to retype and edit everythang
damn it

i hate my father.

2008-12-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

hello peeps.
im so damn pissed off.
by that irritating fellow.
he told me brother that i have been coming home late these few days
so hes not giving me allowance for tomorrow!
i wonder if its only for tomorrow or until idk when?
that sucks right?
whatever. hope he hops into his grave faster.
i know im evil and mean but you wont understand how i feel now
it sucks.

whatever.
so. i spent my days meaningfully.
and happily ;)

thursday-
had band as usual.
celebrated mr lee's birthday after band
then home sweet home
changed, preped.
then trained down to queenstown.
waited for kinweng and lennard to come fetch me :)
and we walked to kinweng's house tgt.
daiwei, kristin, eve was there.
then played heart attack. haha
then had mahjong session!!!!
hehe

watched little nyonya at Kinweng's house
left his house at 10 cos Eve needed to go home.
then she went off and we wento some food market(?) to have our late dinner
ate fried hokkien mee, not very nice. hahahaha
left with lennard, kristin, daiwei, kinweng and me.
then crapped and we wento take mrt
no more last train. so we (me and kristin) bidded goodbye to the guys
and trained to tampines.
slept during the journey, cos i was too tired
27 back to sengkang.
dont feel like going home yet.
slacked around and called James down to slack :)
nice hair :) hahahah
then wento Macs', ate and crapped.
then slacked~~~~~

then we walked kristin home
and he walked me home
he was singing all the way man -.-
then reached home around 4plusam.
bathed and slept. damn shag.

friday-
woke up at 2pm, went back sleep
woke up at 3pluspm?
preped and ate and met Kristin
trained to Tiong Bahru and wento Tiongbahru Plaza to have dinner.
ate their xiang gu rou cuo mian.
not bad. $3 only. haha
then bought drinks and wento Daiwei's house.

Jinsheng was there already.
hahahaha
we reached alr and we started the game.
MAHJONG!!! happy =D
played afew games.
kristin kept winning, jinsheng won 1 game, me and dw didnt win at all ):
then dont want play alr, Lennard came.
and we played Daidi and played UNO
time flies and it was 9.02pm alr!!!
so watch Little Nyonya.
munched on oreos during ads.
hawhaw
then left his house at 10pm

wento Safra and they played pool
a few games only, then we left
bidded goodbye to jinsheng and daiwei
bused to outram with kristin and lennard
took the NEL line so bidden goodbye to lennard
then home sweet home
was tired, slept during the journey
propped my hand on my leg and my head nearly dropped from my hand
so embarrassing! only kristin saw. haha!
i think la

reached home alr
my bro then told me that Mr Idiot(new name) say no allowance for me
because i keep coming home late
then my bro say, go explain to him la then he will give you money
then i said, dream on. whatever la. dont care him -.-
then i just continue to read magazine.
LOL
my father sucks
the most suckiest fucker on Earth
thank me for saying that
im being kind alr

there's band tmr!
sian. tuesday's the farewell
quite looking forward?
ohya! twilight's fans!
TWILIGHT'S OUT ALR
today came out. :)

gonna catch it on Monday with Haru
and im gonna be home by 8pm
cos little nyonya's having 2hrs special on Monday :D:D:D:D
i shall be a good girl and save money
i really weally want my LF wallet. ):
or, any kind *hints* wanna be my santa claus and give me as gift also can
im getting desperate
15 dec is approaching!
):

OHNO!

2008-12-10T22:04:00.002+08:00

i just heard from my brother that next monday's 15december!!!!
OHNOOOOOOO ): i think i need to ask my sister to transfer money to her soon.
ahh, dont fly away~ my wallet!!

okay. lemme update about ytd
woke up around 8plusam, was late for band
didnt play at all, was having flu and cough
then left during lunch time.
went home, slept all the way till 5pluspm.
bathed and prep. left house at 7pluspm
wento kristin's house for dinner, thanks! :D
then we trained down to dhobyghaut to meetup with the rest at around 9.30pm
by the time we reached and meet up with them, already no movies )):
metup w/ Daiwei, Jinsheng, Lennard, Yew wei and Eve
actually there's kinweng too, but he left already.
then after awhile, Eve left too );

then walkwalk, duno where to head to
so we decided to go daiwei's house.
then Yew wei left.
left w/ Jinsheng Daiwei Lennard Kristin and Me.
then bused to his house there.
bus sick ah! feel so sick ):
then! supper-ed at his house downstairs coffeeshop.
damn. the chicken chop is yummylicious!
hahahaha
then after that, wento his house to take badminton rackets
and played badminton awhile.
got sweaty and was tired. so rested

afterward, Jinsheng left.
then we wento Daiwei's house.
comped awhile, and watched Spider Lilies.
i watched on youtube before already.
but the disc version had alot of part cut out.
so there wasnt much climax. -.-
then after that, we were bored, and decided to play mahjong
it was a mini-mahjong session though. LOL
so hard to see the tiles. but i never win at all! ):
only had 3-4 games though.
everybody's neck is sour(suan) cos we have to bend to see the tiles

then we decided to play poker cards
play daidi, not bad ah. i didnt lose.
hahahaha. win like 2-3 games :):)
loser have to do pushups (for guys) and star jumps (for girls)
but if i lose, i'd rather do pushups. haha
but i didnt lose la.
so its a good (Y) thing. :D

then bored again
played Heartattack!
hahahaha
funny and very fun!
had lots of laughters. hawhaw
then played till 6plusam-7am
almost all his family members woke up already
then we went down to have prata for breakfast!
not bad, had a cheese and plain prata :)
crapped and chatted till bout 8am
then we left there and bused to outram mrt
and trained back to sengkang
reached sengkang around 8.30am
which was very FAST.

bought drinks and wento lrt there to slack
DAMN IT. SO MANY ANTS
UN-KILLABLE ANTS.
irritating lor~
then we chatted and bla~
ohya, thanks kristin for the treats :D
haha
me broke la.

then wanted to cab home
BUT! we waited for cab for like 20mins?!?
at compass point, the taxi stand there
was like WTF. cos i was very tired
and was yawning~~~~
going faint already
LOL
but kristin die die also wanna cab
so we waited, and waited
in the end? LRT HOME
hahahaha
lrt came damn fast and i reached home around 10.50am

removed makeup and bathed
plopped onto bed.
was damn tired!
actually told esther i was gg for the dance practice at 4pm
but in the end. im really very very shag and tired
that i didnt go.
sorry peeps ):

i missed it on monday
then wednesday again.
ahhhh
saturday's the farewell.
then woke up at 7plus
bathed and comped :)
dinner sucks today.
tastes so yucky!!!

not much piccas ytd
i hate my makeup.
ah
okay, byee!
there's band tmr.
and im gonna be a good good girl for the next two weeks?
save money ma!

happy? no? sorry, im sensitive. HAHAHA. stupid.

2008-12-09T01:29:00.003+08:00

Hello.
Im back :) :) :) :) :)

so! met kristin around 4pluspm at Sengkang mrt.
then trained to dhobyghaut.
met Lennard, Jeffrey and Juan Kit.
two of them are Lennard's friends :)

bought tix for Bolt at 6.30pm :)
saw Nicholas and his sister while queueing for the tickets :)
was 6pm then. so we spent some time in the arcade :D
played Mario Kart, Lennard's treat.
hahaha
then went in cinema.
hmm, i rate Bolt 4/5 popcorns :D

i think its funny.
hahaha.
then went arcade awhile and trained home.
was rushing like mad when Im at compass.
was wondering if i should buy the shampoo today or not.
but in the end also buy la.

tell you something very dumb that i did.
i wento Watsons' to get the shampoo, then wento queue.
while queueing, i read the back of the bottle.
then there put, "after shampooing, apply a small amount blablabla"
i was like eh? sounds wrong leh.
then i turn infront, IS CONDITIONER
i was like wtf. im already rushing for time, then i still so blurrr~

then went back to change, then wa, the queue is SHORT de lor~
buy already, then rushrush, missed a train. ):
home sweet home after that.
know why im in a rush?
BECAUSE I WANNA WATCH "THE LITTLE NYONYA"
hahahaha
you must be like, wth?
im in love with that show man.
ahhhh
and to think im gonna miss it tmr because of someone )))):
*cries* (okay, too drama already)
whatever.

ya. tmr's a nice ep. i think?
i forget the preview already
hahahahaha
ok so im like freezing now.
my hands are like so freaking cold.

there's band tmr!!!!!
*cries* (okay... too drama liao)
hai.
oh! i forget say that i saw MiaoMiao ytd, while gg rivervale plaza.
hahaha
she's a purple superman ;D

ok, so i was saying..
if there's no band tmr,
the world would have been a better place to live in!
RIGHT? not right also nvm
hahahaa
but yea. )))):
after that gg out movie
pok liao.
sianzxz

OHYA. holidays are ENDING very soon
i havent even,

do my homework
sign my result slip
buy books
and my LF WALLET!!!
okay whatever.
i need to buy books, SOON.

okay, byeeeee
i dread tmr.
i mean morning-afternoon.
hope i dont overshag myself
):

Im so bored.

2008-12-08T15:21:00.002+08:00

IM SO BORED.
now waiting for kristin to eat finish her lunch
i wanna be home before 9pm!!!!
i wanna watch tv. ):
ok, im gonna blogshop
cos im really very bored.

Im hungry ):

2008-12-08T04:08:00.002+08:00

Hello!
alright, lemme blog about today.
slept throughout the day?
nearly, i mean :)
woke up at 4pm, by evelyn's msg.
then slept awhile more and went to prep
met kristin at around 6pluspm, then trained to plaza sing to meet Eve.
then kfc for dinner :) and wento find Rayner.
Eve left, then kristin, me and rayner walked around.
bored, wanted to watch movie. but in the end didnt.
then we trained back to sengkang at around 12am?
then wento rivervale plaza. and waited for kristin's friends.
sat outside Macs' and slacked, crapped, laughed.
funny people :)
home sweet home at 2plusam :)

was kinda irritated.
cos i was walking home, in the night, alone.
then suddenly, it was drizzling -.-
so i ran la.
lol. then home sweet home, and bathed alr
tmr going out again.
yay!
but, sad thing is, Mr Retard, aka my father,
didnt gimme allowance.
wtf?

shit him.

I cant help it if your boyfriend turns when i walk past him.

2008-12-07T01:13:00.002+08:00

look a lil like poodle?

me and mingching!

me and wanling, aka dearest!

me and chunjay (thrs actually 2 pics. but i accidentally del it.)

me and weelim!

me and dennis! the AX shirt guy. just look at whats written there!

Breakin' Dishes.

2008-12-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

OKAY im very bored.
i think i am able to quit the blogshopping habit.
like no mood to shop already leh?
LOL
i wanna play facebook's pet society
but my comp very lag -.-
okay whatever
im so bored!!!!
my hands are cold.

I feel like eating Chipster.

2008-12-06T19:30:00.002+08:00

Okok, hello!
this is happy post.
i know i seemed crazy, but yeah!
im not. :)

sososososo!
went out w/ my primary schools friends yesterday.
was VERY FUN AND FUNNY.
woke up damn early.
around 9am? and rushed to school -.-
practiced that thing you do de dance.
mohana is freakin me out.
he doesnt dare to hold my hand?
so it makes it very difficult to dance. ._.
left around 11plusam.

preped and such.
left house w/ my sis and she alighted at dhobyghaut,
while i alighted at clarke quay to meet them :)
sorry! i was late.
hahahahaha.
people there were, Me, Mingching, Weelim, Wanling, Dennis, ChunJay, Shannon.
yep. haha.
they told me mindcafe was on fire. =.=
but it was fake la!
hahahaha

walkd to mindcafe and played games.
the juraissic(?) park game was FUN!
its like, grabbing bones and screaming, 1 card 2 cards and so on!
DAMN fun that we're the loudest!
LOLOLOL
played many games. out of it, we only liked a few.
hawhaw. the iced peach tea lasted me throughout :)
we played from 2-6.
so worth it? hahahahaha

then left at 6plus after asking the guy to help us take a group picca :)
he's HOT. caucasian, grey eyes if im not wrong. :)
then Weelim, MingChing, Wanling and Shannon left.
so left with me, chunjay and dennis.
was walking around central aimlessly.
then we trained to plaza sing for dinner!

dinnered at Aijisen(?)!
thanks Dennis for the treat :D
he's wearing an AX Polo you know!!!
i was so shocked.
home sweet home after that :)

reached home, tv-ed and bathed and slept
damn tired.
overall, NICE DAY!
NEXT YEAR AGAIN. HAHAHA

today!
woke up at 8am
bathed and prepd.
was late for fallin -.-
then ran 7 rounds.
run till i nearly died.
HAHA
then had bassoon lesson, so sad! last lesson for the year.
but after the lesson, my lips gnna bleed already.
went back band room, combine awhile and lunch time!
lunch was maggie at the carpark :)
went back band room and continued band practice.
can tell today wasnt a good day. somehow.
my lips hurt. its gonna split sooon ):
i feel swollen. haha.

after fallout, wento eCon and bought pocky and home sweet home :)
using comp till now.

damn it. that jonas, freak me out!
i thought someone hacked my comp and i was so scared
damn it.

Pissed off. Very.

2008-12-06T19:12:00.003+08:00

okay, read my title?
prepare for a vulgarity-filled(maybe) post then :)
im feeling so pissed/irritated/angry/tired/whatever now.

NUMBER ONE! THERE'S BAND ON NEXT TUESDAY (WTF)
NUMBER TWO! THE OUTING PLAN SORT OF FAILED >:O
NUMBER THREE! FION MIA-ED
NUMBER FOUR! I READ SOMEONE'S BLOG POST AND ITS OBVIOUSLY(?) SAYING ABOUT ME. FXCK
NUMBER FIVE! MY MSG WASNT REPLIED AND ITS VERY IMPT.
NUMBER SIX! I SAW SOMEONE'S TAG AT SOMEONE'S BLOG.

okay. lemme expand all these first
im very pissed off.
so i cant post anything proper.
i shall post ytd's later on.

number one!
there's band next tuesday.
AHHHH actually dont have one lor!!!!!!
why cant tuesday be a declared school holiday????
damn irritated by this.
AND i cannot skip already.
wtfuck?

number two!
actually me & kristin planned an outing.
and it was spending the night outside till the next day.
AND! BECAUSE of that stupid tuesday!
the plan cant work! ):
how sad you tell me!
first time plan, fail already.
super pissed offf!

number three!
i've got some urgent things to tell FION
and she MIAAAAAA-ED
she hasnt been picking up my calls recently.
and im very sad ):
T.T

number four!
okay, this is very long.
i mean the story is very long.
the thing is,
i asked someone about M
and someone got irritated by that.
and someone blogged it out.
but! i havent clarify yet, because..
(the answer is below)

number five!
so, someone(same) didnt reply to my msg.
thats why im very pissed off.
because. if you dont like me, asking you questions.
then tell me that.
tell me that "can you stop asking? if you've got so much questions, can you go ask him yourself?"
then i will accept.
dont reply my questions and then write on your blog say that you not happy or whatever.
BUT! if you're REALLY not referring to me,
then its good. i might apologise to you.

but, im not sure if i msged the correct number -.-
cos that person hasnt replied my msg.
or maybe dont dare?
idk! but ah. im so pissed
and it concerns my EX
thats why im so fxcked up.

okay! last one,
number six!
i saw someone's tag at someone's blog.
i keep see his name/him recently.
its bringing my feelings back.
):

okay. no more complains.
okay, my lips hurts ):

It's fearless.

2008-12-04T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hello people.
im very happy now.
hahaha
cos i managed to dig out some information!
hehe

so anyway!
i went band for full day today.
-.- reached school, just in time? for fall in :D
then blablabla and went up setup instrument.
breaked for sectionals.
was teaching alexia and benjamin, supposed to sectional on under the flag of glory.
but we finished already!
so chiong sectionals, and about 11.30am?
we took a break, and was crapping all the way.
alil slacking wont kill right? :)

then lunch at 12pm :)
thanks shimin and esther for buying! :D
i feel so bad, everytime is other people help me buy.
ahhh
went down to eat and went up band room just in time :)
mr er havent come, so went for sectionals again.
joanna came also. a new addition to the BASSLINE!
woooot
hahaha. but she was playing the tuba
and no one was there! no one to teach her.
so i helpd. but i know nuts about tuba.
haha.

then sectional-ed on japanese graffiti IV and VI
niceee, i like.
awhile later i went in to spot check on fiona and gabriel.
not bad eh. gabriel is damn good.
then i was about to go out and alexia they all came in.
was raining then.
so sectional-ed inside.
bored already. also nothing to play.
and my lips gonna tear sooner or later.
ugh ):

then around 5.10pm went to fall in.
sian! tmr have to go school~
to cheorograph(?) the dance for "can i have this dance?"
and, that thing you do, is so nice~ omggg
i mean the song.
after fall out, home sweet home.
read eclipse and fell asleep.

woke up at 9pm :)
watched little nyonya.
whole ep only crying, crying and MORE crying.
....
then now using comp.

i think i'll be busy tmr.
9-11.30am , go school.
1.30pm, meeting primary school friends.
kinda excited now though!

then i needa be home by 9pm!
i wana watch little nyonya.
hehe
and kinda looking forward to Sunday as well.
ANW, i think there's band on tuesday.
SIAN 1/2 SIAN 1/2 SIAN 1/2
AHHH
hope there isnt any!

okay, thats all.
and my playlist got screwed
i alr make the shuffle stop liao!
then i put back, still shuffle.
the "all around me" sounds so sex-y.
yuck!
ok, bye!

2008-12-04T00:13:00.002+08:00

jinsheng, kinweng, yew wei, lennard daiwei (from left to right)

me , kristin , eve (left to right)

i like!

i like blue blue sky w/o clouds~ weeee~

yumm! dont ask me why i posted this. hawhaw. ham and cheese!

look at what my girlfriends are doing! so cute right! :D

anw, its me and alex!

hi kenneth!

see behind again. hahaha

*dint post me and fion's piccas.

i think she'll kill me.

hahaha

anw, im gna go throw rubbish and bathe liao!

buaizzz there's band tmr!!!

SPELL S-I-A-N-E-S-S.

thankyou!

xo.

I hate this part.

2008-12-03T22:52:00.004+08:00

Hello hello people.
me today very de happy worxz.
harhar.
(okay, my music in my blog is irritating me. gonna change it soon!)

okay, so..
woke up around 12pluspm.
bathed and preped, met kristin at around 4pm?
wento compass, bought the necessary stuffs and wento SKCC to do the farewell card for mr tan :)

i think its quite ugly.
hahaha
but its HANDMADE by mostly me! kristin helped too :) thanks dear.
spent like few hours there?
after i've done up the card, felt quite satisfied!
but its kinda ugly though! but its the thought that counts right???
hahaha
left the place around 8pluspm :)

wento compass to get smth to eat as we're kinda hungry :)
bought breads and wento the lrt there and eat :)
left there around 8.30pm :)
homesweethome at 8.45pm like that.

damn it. i hate people who are damn inconsiderate
im alr VERY skinny and aint occupying ALOT of space
and that stupid old bitch keep leaning onto me.
pissed off? YES. I AM.

whatever.
dinnered (haha! i ate again)
and tv-ed :)
now using comp!

anyway, was at somebody's blog ytd.
i feel kinda irritated after reading what she wrote.
its like, if she doesnt know how to use that word, then dont use lah!!!
whats so difficult?
and the magic word is...

IMMA.
quite alot of people used it wrongly and they didnt know
and keep use wrongly!
and its so irritating when you read it.
not one time, but ALOT OF TIMES.
fuck.

Example,

"Imma sick"
"Imma worked"
"Imma stucked"

okay...
so you're gonna ask me,
then how to use it? since you say until like you so pro?

Imma, to break it up, its Im a.
some people use Ima, its the same.
Imma=Ima.

Imma bitch.
Imma geek.
Imma teenager.
Imma girl.

yeah, so you get it?
i think she reads my blog.
so yeah, something for her?

if you still dont understand,
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=imma
go to that url, it'll help :)

i've got over you?

2008-12-03T03:37:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps.
today wasnt reallllly a good day though
woke up around 8.20am.
felt really sick and headache-y and went back to sleep.
woke up later at around like 12pm?
waited for sms to tell me what time lunch ends :)

then reached band room around 1.45 pm :)
and mr er said mr tan wanna talk to me,
ask me why keep afternoon then come.
so talked to mr tan. i told him i was really sick and bla.
then he told me to find out the root of the problem.
if i know, i'd be a doctor already? Lol.

whatever.
then setup instrument and went inside :)
played Abba Gold mostly. was feeling sick-ish man.
ahhhh
then around 4pluspm, practiced the songs that were meant for Mr Tan's farewell partaye :)
oh and Mr Lee's bday celebration too. haha

then, no fall in!
was like YAYYYYYYY.
cos fall in always waste so much time -.-
but! it was raining...
drenched? alil. wento eCon to get some food
was famished.
hahahah

then went home, used comp and bla
dinner suck. the fish tastes so weird!
then watched Little Nyonya. Omg, its my fav show man!!!
actually also got 10 brothers, but finish alr ma.
hahaha
so nice. i pity Juxiang. that stupid jap guy made her suffer.
ahhh
then comped till now.

was on www.sgclub.com just now
all along~ you know!
its kinda great.
reading stuffs that you didnt know.

there's this father who raped her biological daughter 23 times!
WTF right?
he's in jail alr, 24 years? or 24 strokes. i forget.
but how i wish he was shot dead.
this kind of bastard.
make him become eunch better.
i despise fathers raping their own daughter.
from 13years old till 15 years old you know!!
somemore is the daughter's boyfriend informed the vp then vp call police.
so bastard right?
if im the judge, i would have wanted him hung dead.
stupid fxcking bastardddd!

ahh, go join the forum okay!
its good,
here's the link :)

Zip it up.

2008-12-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

okay im so pissed.
but i needa say something first.

ZHENGHUA SYMPHONIC BAND's 1st concert.
Venue: Singapore Conference Hall
Date: 27th December 2008 (Saturday)
Time: 7:30 PM
Tickets are sold at $10 each

Compassvale Military Band will be performing as a Guest Band. :)
do support and buy from the the tickets alright?
i have 2 now. :)

more info, visit http://symphonie-d-harmonie.blogspot.com/

SO anyway.
im gonna pour
my mind is jammed up again.
which is really idiotic.
-
what juniors say about you really do matters
its the kind of feedback about how people feel about you.
dont really wish to name the person out.
but i know she know who she is.

maybe you're still young.
you dont understand the culture of our band.
you dont understand our band well enough
or it could be,
you dont understand how to handle people well.
you dont understand how to understand people well.
you dont understand me well enough yet.

ask my juniors.
ask sec3s,
im not a person with good tolerance.
meaning, i lose my temper quite easily.
but yet i teach my juniors well.
i dare say, even my youngest junior can overtake you.
in terms of music.
im not trying to put you down or insult you here.

i just hope that you're reading this post.
sometimes, dont complain
listen copy and do it. ( i mean music)
dont complain this and that.
you're still a sec 1. its not really necessary for you to do that.
maybe you can complain, gossip or whatever
just pray that it doesnt reach my ears.
because, i dont like people to gossip about me.
you can gossip, yes you can
but gossip professionally, gossip behind my back
dont gossip till it slammed me in the face.

you told someone that i keep giving you breaks when your senior is not around
and im taking you for sectionals.
then lemme tell you this,
i dont recall giving you alot of breaks,
i recall that i would be away sometimes teaching my own junior
and i left you on your own to practice.
which i dont know you practice-d or not.

if i did give you alot of breaks.
then lemme tell you.
i shan't be so nice anymore.
i shan't give you SO MANY BREAKS already :)
my own juniors doesnt get alot of breaks, you know?
its not that im mean or what.
i just dont want to let them keep thinking of having breaks.
once you have once, you will keep thinking of another.
in other way, they're not lazy.
they dont really request me for breaks.
its when other seniors or me sees that they're rather tired
then i will give them breaks.

so get this straight.
like what a senior (same batch as me) said.
A break is a privilege. ( by the senior)
Its not an entitlement. ( by me)
which means that, the break is given, not provided.
i can dont give you break, you know?
so, your senior isnt going band tmr,
and pray that there's NO SECTIONALS.
too bad if there is.
because you might be getting hell from me.

you're rather weak.
so i might be installing some vigorous training in the sectionals :)
you'll never know.

so whatever it is.
i've poured out what im thinking.
i didnt use any vulgarities.
i dont think its necessary, besides.
you will think that im a freaking chao ah lianxz
but im not yeah?
ha.

alright,
xo :)

Pierce through a needle through my heart and you will know what im saying is true.

2008-12-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

Hello peopleeeeeeeee.
was out ytd, almost whole day.
and im so tired and sore.
haha. but its GREAT okay (:
i love love love love ytd very very very much :)

woke up around 9.30am?
quite late i know. but im tired!
haha
then bathed preped and met Kristin at my house's bus stop at around 10plus am?
bused to Escape and met Eve, Kinweng, Daiwei, Yew wei and JinSheng :)
bought tix and went in.
they ate at Burger King, and Lennard came awhile later.
was raining then. so we went to Haunted House II.
okay la. hahah. improved? just that no one came out to scare us.
which was not good. hahaha

went to the carnival thingy. to waste some time.
and the guys won some stuffs.
basically, we played the Viking Ship (was freaking funny) , Haunted House II again, Roller Coaster (for kids) and Pepsi?
haha.

left around 3pluspm to E!Hub.
walked around? spent sometime in arcade.
and lunched at the foodcourt.
while in the arcade the stupid gay msged us and say the work is cancelled.
which was really retarded and i feel like slapping him.
GAYS ARE STUPID AND IMMATURE LIKE FUCK.
okay, whateverrrrr~

then decided to go to Daiwei's house for mahjong.
trained all the way there, chatted quite alot on the train.
haha
then reached his house.
slacked awhile and started playing mahjong.
haha. it was fun.
left his house around 11pluspm.

had supper at the coffeeshop downstairs.
then it was really late alr, around 11.45pm alr?
so we cabbed to Tiongbahru mrt
NO LAST TRAIN TO SENGKANG ALR.
i was like ._.
then luckily the smarttttt girl Kristin thought of training to Tampines and cab back to Sengkang, which was cheaper.

so we trained allllll the way to Tampines.
chatted alottttt. hahaha
then we went to the bus stop to check out the timing for last bus for 27
STILL HAVE!!!
hahaha
waited and bused back to my house there
decided to slack.
then wento my house void deck, crapped and chatted.
my heart is empty of troubles/worries and everything alr
hahaha which is great.

chatted till her eyes went red, my throat went sore.
HAHAH weird. around 3plus am.
then she cabbed home :)
and i went home too :)
bathed and slept, was damn tired!

Today.

had a major hangover.
LOL
woke up around 1pluspm to have my dinner
and went back to sleep
headache was killing me inside out.
woke up around 6pluspm and bathed
watched the last ep for 10 brothers :)
then tv-ed till 10pm :)
now using comp.
there's band tmr!
i think my lip hasnt recovered. ):
ohwell. this week is

tuesday-band
wed-going out
thurs-band
fri-going out
sat-band
sun-REST!

oh, great.
-.-
i realised i cannot one day never use comp
i will think that i missed out alot of stuffs.
hawhaw.

Spell h-a-p-py.

2008-11-30T02:11:00.002+08:00

okkkk
hihi people
im so happy ;)
today's a happy day yo!
hehe

went for band, THE WHOLE DAY OKAYZXZXZ
omfg, it has been long ever since i've went for full day.
hawhaw
okay nvm.
was nearly late for fall in today.
then ran 5 rounds for morning runs.
went up early cos we having bassoon lesson :)
then went to resource room.
then warmed up and played some music.

around 10am, Mr Sun came.
then we warmed up and such.
i kinda love today's lesson :)
although i suck. ):
running notes getting better.
everything's getting better.
*look on the bright side of life~*
HAHAH okay -.-

then ended around 12pm
and he left.
aww next lesson is our LAST LESSON.
damnit.
then we stayed there and rest till lunch.
thanks simin and peiyun for buying back :)
then ate and chattted
ran like hell when Mr Er said anyone who is behind him will run 10 rounds.

reached the band room and im still panting
hawhaw
played under the flag of glory
i like that song :)
then die fledermaus :)
running notes is driving me crazaye!
then he ended lesson at 3.15pm
he was supposed to leave
but he gossiped with us.
HAHAHA
till like 4.30pm

actually he said sectionals/go home
i want go home!!!!!
but some people wanna sectional ):
but in the end he talktalktalk till 4.30pm
hahahaha
love him man! :D:D:D:D

fall in at 4.40pm
then home sweet home at 5pm
rested, and tried to use internet
but damn net couldnt connect!
was super duper damn pissed

rest awhile and i wento bathe
prep and such
left house at 6.45pm :)
trained to Cityhall alone to find Jinsheng and Daiwei.
and they're are Starbucks.
and i got LOST! IN citylink mall!!!!
HAHAHAHA
then me and jinsheng couldnt find each other
hahahaha
like in a mazeeeeee.

then finally found him and wento find Daiwei :)
then Yew wei came. and we wento Suntec City Convention Hall?
thought the IT fair was there.
in the end its at SINGAPORE EXPO!
WTH. wasted trip. haha

then we wento SUBWAYYYYYYYYY!
and i ate COLD CUT TRIO!
Daiwei ate the same as me! but he had FOOTLONG.
hahahaha

then ateeee and crapped.
then i tummyache wento toilet and shit
hahahah
then come back, they went loo
and we walked around.
wento arcade that time,
yew wei left.
then lennard came.
haha

then walkwalk, wanted to go bookshop
but its closed.
then wento Esplanade underpass and they practiced their dance
saw many other coooooooollllll people, practicing bikes and skateboards
got one is damn skinny quite handsome. HAHAHA
okay -.-

then left around 11.10pm
wento 711 and bought drinks :)
then home sweet home ard 11.20 pm :)
trained back Sengkang alone :)
reached around 12.15am.
then had to LRT one big round to go Compassvale -.-
retarded SMRT/SBS transit or whatever bullshit.

while on the train, my bro called me
and asked me where am i
i was like, DIE LIAO.
tmr im gonna be home LATE
PRAY THAT MR RETARD DONT CALL PLEASE!!!!!
damn it.

then now i havent bath yet!
i was settling some shop stuffs
im addicted to TONGUE TIED
omfgggg so nice!
i know im slow~
hawhaw

OVERALL, today's a HAPPY DAY!
even jinsheng noticed that i was happy today
hahahahaha
idk why, :)
i hope tmr will be a good day also!
out with beloved frenssssss
hahah
okay, nights!

Hihi, im fine.

2008-11-29T02:42:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm fine already.
harhar.
got to know this guy called Rayner.
not 3g'o8 's Rayner la.
hahah

spent my day advertising.
woke up at 3pluspm,
bathed ate and used comp
10 brothers at 7pm
dinnered and Little Nyonya at 9pm
damn, im addicted to the two shows man!
so niceeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

then 10pm went back to using comp again
till now, i've just finished consolidating Geo's Orders. :)
closed already la.
hahahahaha
so sad, i couldnt get my toric lenses
hope i get Bescon's ones too
HOORAYYYY
haha okay -.-

its 2.45pm now
tmr dont feel like a Saturday
A Saturday-with-band day.
):
gah! there's bsn lesson tmr morning.
till 12pm..

after band maybe gg IT fair w/ js and dw tmr :)
greattttt. yay
im gna sleep.
goodnight babies.
okay -.-
goodnight earthlings.
buaiiiz.

PICCAS.

2008-11-28T01:03:00.004+08:00

*CONTACTS!!! *SCREAMS~

me luv her.

me luv her!

er, i didnt meant it to be so white.
MAIN POINT : CONTACTS!!!!!! *SCREAMS.

when im gone.

2008-11-28T00:20:00.003+08:00

I feel miserable.
I feel terrible.
I feel sad.

Dont ask me why.
Me myself also dont know why im like that.
I've been spending these nights pathetically.
theorically thinking of things? but im not.
my mind is jammed up. jammed up.
i cant think.

i keep having moodswings
its not PMS.
i also dont know why i suddenly become like that.
little things that people do, people close to me do, irritate the shit out of me
so much so that i flared up
to them. lashed out.
i didnt mean it
i really dont.

i dont even know why myself became like that
initially was going out with kristin they all tomorrow
said im saving money
but i think i really dont have the mood.

i keep jammed up with the idea of SAVING MONEY SAVING MONEY SAVING MONEY
but i just cant seem to save any.

i really want my LF wallet so much
i really want to have my astig degrees checked so much
i really wanna wear astig coloured lens so much.

the deadline for GEO is 29th november.
i need $15 for eye checkup
i need $45 for geo toric lens.

total? $60
how to save $60 within like, 3 days? idk
i dont know how to count anymore
im feeling.. terrible.

maybe i should just dont wear toric lens
just like what fion said.
but the problem is
why cant i have the things i want?
its because of my father
its all because of him
that i couldnt and cannot get what i wanted
fuck. why am i born in this family
to suffer
to treat money like something that is very impt
whatever it is.
i cant take it
im very sick of this.
i've gotta solve it.

maybe i should really list out my needs and wants

needs:
earpiece
black flats

wants:
LF wallet
Toric/Astig Lens
Rebonding.

see. maybe i really couldnt set my priority right.
the trip to Escape this Sunday is an expensive want.
i dont feel like going partly cos of money
i feel so poor you know?
im not really making any money
and i aint a good money controller
for whichever the case is.

maybe i burdened myself with too much things
too much
really.

was teaching Alexia and Benjamin today
was having sore throat and when i coughed
i could feel blood taste
whats happening?
ask me.
i also wanna ask myself.
my health's been not good recently
maybe its me and my own doing.
i know i shouldnt eat the burnt toast
yet i ate it
i was hungry
i couldnt help it.

see, what im saying now is alil psychotic(sp)
whoever pass by this and still reading on till now,
i thank you.
for reading.
maybe you just wanna pick out points to gossip
to ridicule
its okay.

you can spam me now
im at my most vulnerable point
too vulnerable
hit me and i'll fall
and i cant stand up.

Im not crazy but im just a little unwell.
Im not crazy but im just a little impaired.

I feel so tired.
tired of considering how others' feel about what ive said
I feel so tired for thinking for others
because they arent grateful.
they dont treat me the same way i treat them
i treat them well and good, they climb on top of my head and shit.
so what do i get for treating people good?

i think what i say nowadays
because what others say will hurt me too
so if i dont want others to be hurt
i should think for them too right?
but they dont even think for me
why should i even think for them in the first place?
makes sense? yes.
:|

anyhow.
i hate people copying the words i use
the way i wear my stuffs
the way i speak/type
the way i express myself
i hate it.
why cant copycats be more original?
you're just a copy of the original
you feel happy?
being a copy?
LOL.

copycats are people who have no brains
because they cannot think for themselves
therefore they steal ideas from others and put it on themselves
and pass it on as theirs
chim-o-logy eh?

whatever. im getting tired
having to tolerate copycats around me
maybe you didnt mean it
but YOU VERY FUNNY
YOU SAY YOU DONT LIKE COPYCATS BLABLA SHIT
THEN YOU OWNSELF COPY.
FUCK OFF PLEASE.

its plain retard.
AHHH DAMN IT
IM SO PISSSED.
i duno what else to say alrd

i shall post PICCAS (COPYRIGHT BY ME)
FUCK.

i saw it. but i didnt get it. i wanted it so much.

2008-11-27T01:39:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH
im feeling sick now ):
feverish and idk.
ahhh
prolly cos there's band tmr
something happened just now
i ought to feel neutral
but i wasnt.
i was so fucked up.

but im normal now again -.-
spent half of my day sleeping
only to wake up at intervals
12pm, 3pm and 6pm -.-
bathed and used comp

wanted to upload some piccas
but my comp is SO DAMN LAG today
that i decided to give up the idea.
so anw, im feeling sick (main point)
im feeling fxcked up.
fullstop.